New Ways of Worshiping God keeps Our Relationship Fresh

The more ways we try to explore God’s ways, the more closer we will come to Him. It is the same with our friends and family. If we do the same thing every day over and over again the friendship becomes stale. We have to try out new things to keep the friendship alive and fresh. Some routines are very good and necessary and at other times we need to change things a little. So as to see new things in the person that we didn’t know about before. Somebody who has been married for 50 years, are still finding out new things about each other. That is the way our relationship with God is so supposed to be like. If we keep doing the same things over and over again, how can we find about new wonderful things about our God and Father, if we don’t let Him show us.

Recognising God’s Voice

I was thinking the other day about God wanting to communicate with us all the time. We have been told many times. We have to learn how to recognise His voice from our own and that of the evil one. God may communicate to you one way all through your life, but there are many other ways in which He does communicate. I tend to have visitations, so I have been spoilt in that I thought that is the only way He would communicate to me. Through experimenting how to come closer to God, from outstanding Christians. In other words Christians that have proven to be faithful to God is important. There is so much evil in this world and too many people who may sound trustworthy until you have a closer look at their lives. Don’t get confused of rumours either. There are too many people out there these days that are deliberately attacking good honest Christians, with shocking lies about them. Wanting to destroy their characters before the eyes of the public, and therefore trying to damage the reputation of Christianity. So it is so important to pray for discernment. The devil is very desperate at the moment to lead the most people astray from God and their eternal inheritance. He is more aware than any of us how short his time to rule the earth is left to him.

How it Works With Me

I am learning more and more how to recognised God’s voice other than visitations of Jesus in spirit. The best way to work for me, is to start writing to God. As I am writing I ask Him to speak to me through writing. I have found with me, as soon as words start to coming to me, I just start writing them down. If I don’t falter it starts to flow quickly. Sometimes so quickly I can’t keep up with it. I have read that can happen. I am thinking maybe God does it that way so that the devil doesn’t have a chance to butt in. The moment I question a word and stop, the flow then also stops and I can’t start it up again. What I have noticed if I just write the word that I am confused about anyway, after I have written the whole letter down and re-read it, it makes beautiful sense.

A Method of Discerning

You do have to watch the devil, because he will present words to you that sounds good, but is just to get you in. I have found the devil will often quote Bible passages with me, so as to win my confidence over. There is a difference when God speaks to you. When it is God who speaks to you it so touches your heart and makes you so joyful. You feel so loved. The devil I would imagine works differently for each person. In that everybody has different weakness in what they feel comes from God. Remember what Jesus tells us how to discern a false prophet or a wolf in sheep’s clothing. ‘By their fruits you will know them.’ If it leads to true holiness, which includes love and meekness then it is OK. If it ends up leading you to think you are better than others, or you find the messages no longer resemble the character of Christ, know it is not from God.

isW102ZQ1LI believe God is really pouring down His Holy Spirit onto people. I Know I am not the only one who can see this. I believe without a doubt it is due to the many and countless Christian martyrs being tortured and dying for the Lord. I believe they have paid the price for us, to receive the Holy Spirit at a new level. We all have to work to increase the kingdom of God, according to what we have to offer. Martyrdom is a very powerful way that appeases God’s Justice. And therefore showers mercies on people that otherwise would not have receive it. Some receive the grace of salvation and others salvation and incredible increase of the supernatural gifts from the Holy Spirit. I am certainly finding that I have been incredibly been blessed with increase and I know it is not only because I serve God with all my heart, but others have prayed for me and I thank the martyrs also so much. Our faith was founded on the Martyrdom of Jesus Christ and all His disciples. With the exception of one, they were all martyred to death. And you look at Christian history, when the enemy of our faith tries to destroy our belief in Christ, through killing off all the Christians. What it does instead? It increases our devotion to our God and we call on Him like nobody’s business and guess what? The faith in truth grows more speedily, during persecution than in peace time. Have you ever noticed? More come to know Him and therefore instead of less Christians the enemy has to attend with, there are more. That is the way God rewards the Martyrs. They bring in a rich harvest for Him.

John 3:16-17

“For God so loved the world, that he gave his only Son, that whoever believes in Him should not perish but have eternal life. For God did not send his Son into the world to condemn the world, but in order that the world might be saved through him.

Sometimes we hear a verse in the Bible so often we don’t really pay deep attention of what it is saying. The above verse is so important to meditate on it all our lives. You should never get tired of hearing it. And likewise the verse below is so important to remember as well, because Satan will do everything in his power for you not to believe in the promises of God.

Romans 10:9

If you confess with your mouth that Jesus is Lord and believe in you heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved.

When you believe in your heart, it is going to show in your actions. Our tendency to skip what we don’t want to hear is very strong in all of us, unfortunately. We mustn’t do that!! If we want to be saved we must learn to listen and obey. If you really believe that Jesus is Lord, you are not going to disobey him. So look careful what St. Paul is saying. Too many people are giving lips service to God. If you want to make God angry that is a perfect way to do it; somebody who gives only lips service, is a fake Christian. 


While there is Life There is Hope

After the Warning when God will make it clear to the whole world that He truly Exist and exposes our sins for what they are. And how much they cost Jesus in order to save each individual, there will be many people who will die of horror of their sins. So Jesus is asking us to pray for them that they will have time to repent before they die. If you want to know more about the Warning and the Second Coming there is a site fatherofloveandmercy. Marie Divine Mercy is the name of the prophetess the sites goes under it is a huge site. She has been prophesying for many years now and has received much suffering from her obedience to serve God. That is a sure sign to notice, when testing if a prophet is real or not. Are they prepared to suffer for God? False prophets would run the other way. She has been under supervision of a priest all this time, so her work has been checked to see if it is genuinely from God or not. Like right now this text should be normal and I can’t make it normal because my attackers interfering with my work.

During this time in history (the perilous times) there will be many sucides, because people don’t understand that it is not too late to ask for repentance. So we must pray that they do and educate people it is never too late, while you still have breath in you. She has said even when Jesus appears and is about to judge the world at His Second Coming we are to pray for ourselves and for others. So that is clearly saying even in that last moment, our prayers are heard and people can be saved.

Nobody knows really how serious a sinner we really all are, because our mind is so limited we don’t realise whom it is that we sin against. God is so big and we are so insignificant before Him, if we only could realise that. We are totally dependent on Him for our existence and yet we take Him so much for granted. A good healthy fear of Him keeps us safe. It keeps us in line and we need a lot of that. Only through the blood of the Lamb Jesus Christ, can we be made worthy of being in the presence of God. We have to pray for humility all the time, because it is unnatural for us wicked souls, who are prone to arrogance. We were born with the belief that we are the most important person in the universes. That has to all change if we are to follow Jesus and enter His kingdom.

God will save us even at the very last of the last moment of our live, if we turned to Him in humble hope and repentance. I have had experience of it personally and one of them I want to share with you, so that you may have hope if something like this ever happens to you. When I found out that prayers was exceedingly powerful and that I could pray for people even on the other side of the world and ask God to save them in humility, God would do it. Well that of course attracted Satan’s attention. When a Christians finds out how powerful they are in Jesus name and if they have the true desire to do the will of the Father in Heaven, Satan in going to get real nasty with you. (like he is now through his little workers) And I was attack by demons for approximately twenty five years physically. They tend to attack me in a different way now.

is1DPX2JISThey seem to be getting more sneaker and yet more open at the same time. Satan has sent his worshipers onto me instead. Saint Teresa actually feared man more than demons. I too believe man in many ways are more dangerous, because it is man that gives the demons their power in the first place. All this God uses, so that we get even stronger and wiser in the service of God.

I use to get attack at the very beginning about three times a week for about ten years and then it was three time a fortnight and then it got lesser and then lesser. During these attacks I will be paralysed and therefore couldn’t call out to anybody to help me in anyway. Like asking them to pray for me. So it is just the demon, me and God. In that situation you do learn a lot, because God is not going to abandon anybody who calls on Him in trust. The moment the attack began I would automatically start reciting the prayer ‘Hail Mary’ and just kept at it until God gave me another prayer. Then I would say the prayer God gave me and usually the demon would go straight away. Well after twenty five years of this, it dawned on me that Mary had never ever let me down. That she had always protected me while I was waiting on God to give me a prayer during the attack. when this truth dawned on me, I kept saying over and over again that Mary has never failed me not even once. I just want to point out God does listen to every word we say and He does remember them, even if we forget God never does. It was like God said, “Good! she is ready now for the next lesson.”

is(2)In the following attack God put a prayer in my heart to say, instead of the Hail Mary, I knew from them on that was the prayer He wanted me to say instead, during these attacks. I have been saying the Hail Mary prayers for twenty five years and I was comfortable with that prayer. I even said it in my sleep, because it came so easy for me. The prayer God wanted me to say was harder to say. I needed to concentrated on what I was saying a lot more than what I needed with the Hail Mary prayers. I said the Hail Mary prayer knowing what God preferred me to say instead. God punished me, by letting the demon have the upper hand and I was running out of breath. I knew I would be dead before I could finish the prayer. I repented of my sin quickly and prayed for help and He gave it to me straight away. To my surprise God seemed to stop time so I could say the prayer He wanted me to say in the first place. God wasn’t putting me in danger. He knew how I would respond with repentance and basically that is all He is asking from us. If we do that He straight away forgives, but if you refuse to repent what can God do?

I will write the prayer that God had asked me to say, but first with a strong warning. I got this prayer which is in fact from another longer prayer of the meditation of the Fourteen Station Cross Rosary from the enemy camp. I didn’t say this pray for a long time when I was first introduce to it, because of where it came from. At the same time I was very confused, because it was a prayer at that time Jesus kept begging me to say. I don’t know if the guy had a true vision of Mary and then turned away through pride and started his own cult or what. That to me is a possibility, but I really don’t understand it at all. I just know this prayer came from him. Meditating on the crucifixion comes with promises from God Himself and one of those promises is eternal life for those who meditate it often with deep dedication. It stands to reason if you meditate like that you will be worshiping Him with a greater love than if you didn’t ever think of what Jesus suffered for us.

This is the prayer

Bless be the wounds of Jesus Christ for they heal us from the pains of sin. Bless be His precious blood which washes away our iniquities.

This prayer is exceeding powerful and if you say it over and over again while you are being attack, you will find the demons eventually go away.  Sometimes instantly, it depends a lot on faith, but sometimes God might be teaching you something, so you just keep at it. It is also powerful for anything at all. The demons whether they like it or not, don’t know everything and they can judge you wrongly.

I just want to mention quickly that I disagree with a teaching that is now popular and that is Satan can’t hear your thoughts. Satan would love you to believe in that lie. He knows you weaknesses better than you do. He has had plenty of practise to tempt mankind. I had a demon attack who was fully aware I could hear his thoughts and he tried to still his mind by blanking out his thoughts, but it was too late I already heard what he was thinking. He didn’t want me to know how powerful the above prayer was. Another thing I believe Satan worshipers use mind control a lot when they are attacking people. I believe it is a form of hypnosis, they suggest things to you so that you may  lose self control, like over spending your money, losing your temper etc.

I can hear thoughts too sometimes, when it is the Will of God for me to do so. So if humans can, Satan sure can hear our thoughts as well. There is a difference when a person deliberately learns how and wills to read a person’s mind to control another, then when it is the Will of God. For one thing there is no effort on the persons part. It is all God’s doing, I suppose maybe evil spirits do it too, since they basically are copying the Holy Spirit. But when it is God it never leads to evil.

isSA7LX265There are records of Saints of old that use to be able to read minds and of course it was always for God’s glory never for self gain. Saint Francis my patron saint had this gift. A friar was having thoughts that he was wrestling with and finally chose to do the right thing and Saint Frances turned to him and told him that he chose the right thing to do. I have heard peoples thoughts and it is usually negative judgemental type. I hear these thoughts for no other reason than God is teaching me about human nature. It is not for me to judge and it never has that effect on me. I have never judge them. God doesn’t do this to me all the time and it is certainly not something I seek. That is probably why I have this gift. I am not that interested in it, but the gift of healing is something else again. I think I have to work at receiving that gift longer, because if I get that gift too easily it might go to my head.

Prophesies Can be Confusing

I have a book called “The Crusade of Prayer.’ These are prayers given to a prophetess going by the name of Maria Divine Mercy. The prayers were given to her by Jesus Himself for us to pray for the preparation of the second coming. The prayers are very powerful and I love saying them, because I know they make a big difference in God’s Will being accomplish by saving so many souls.

isCDQ8IBZ3It can get confusing sometimes when you hear so many different prophecies out there and they seem to contradict one another. What can be so confusing is that they are from very genuine people recalling visions given them by God. I remember I had a friend who was a seer of God’s once and she hated dates, because Gods’ timing is not ours. We don’t always interrupt what we are told by God correctly and that is where the confusion can come from. I do believe God sometimes can set us up as well.  I have experience it and I am sure many of you have too and we are so glad that He does. If He didn’t set us up sometimes, we would do certain things differently, but because we were trick into it, we received great blessings that otherwise we would not be privilege to have. God is good. He did command us to go out into the world as a lamb and be sneaky as serpents. If He is telling us to do that, guess who is being sneaky with us sometimes. He has too for our salvation.

Jesus is Leading

If having visions about the era of the rapture is going to get us moving, He will give us rapture dreams, but leave out it is not going to be in your lifetime. If it is the second coming that moves you then He will use that to move you. He doesn’t lie, He just doesn’t let you know everything, because it would be harmful. In one of my visions I had from God, I saw people in front of a table at a wedding feast and then suddenly everybody turned around and was dancing. I knew it was the wedding supper of His brides, but what was very interesting I complained to Him, because the picture was so small on the left hand side of the corner down at the bottom of the screen. I said to Him ‘can’t you make the picture bigger’ and then light dawned on me and I realised that was the message. More than three quarters was empty. He was telling me I knew next to nothing about the future, despite of all prophesies out there, there was a lot not being told for our sakes.

He said to one visionary that these rapture dreams were like fire drills we sometimes practise ourselves. We practise these drills to make sure if a real fire came we all would know what to do and it keeps us all on our toes. Well God apparently does these things also with us.  And without these fire drills we would all be asleep spiritually and then the end of the world would happen quicker than God planed it. We were also told because of people praying in earnest last year, the rapture would of taken place last June. Prayers and sacrifice are so important it can stop prophesies from being fulfilled. For example I really believe God was going to end the world in the 12 century. As I said once before in another article, St. Francis died with a secret and a friar wanted to know what that secret was, so he prayed and prayed until St. Francis appeared to him one day and told him that God would of ended the world then, but because St. Francis was chosen by Jesus to rebuild his church and because he obeyed God spared the world at that time in history. God does know how to motivate us into action.

We are Still Very Much in a Spiritual War

We are still very much in a spiritual war and we have to be involved in order to win. We would be disobedient if we didn’t engage and fight back and declaring over and over again that everything Satan has stolen from us returns back at the very least seven fold. I was upping it to 7,000 fold return and God was really keen for me to do this. Most of us say seven times back return, but in my opinion it is because our faith is not strong enough to believe that God is that generous He would gladly return more. Matter of fact one day I said I won’t declare seven billion back, because if I got that return I wouldn’t be mature enough to know how to handle it. And then I felt straight away God’s presence and He was sad that I thought that way. In other words He just wanted me to have the faith to ask seven billion back and that would have made God very happy. So there is no limit to God’s generosity and we always put limits on Him, because we do not know Him that well so we don’t believe.

The important thing is despite of all the different prophecies out there we need to know one thing, and that is be ready because Jesus will come like a thief in the night regardless. It really doesn’t matter if the rapture be tomorrow or 4,000 years from now. We have to be ready now, because we don’t know when Jesus will come for us. We all could die tomorrow. So we just do as He says and love Him as if we are already in Heaven and that will please Him very much and the rewards how can we describe them.

1 Corinthians 15:58. Therefore, my beloved brothers, be steadfast, immovable, always abounding in the work of the Lord, knowing that in the Lord your labor is not in vain.



What to Look Out for

Have you ever notice how with good people, say who are trying to make an honest living by starting their own business and not only does it fail, while other people who are not in alignment with God prospers so well. They find this is also happening in many other areas of their lives too. I have always wondered about things like that. I trusted God still, I just thought I will just offer all my misfortune up for souls and know that I will rewarded one day in heaven. And I still believe that, but now I am realising that much disappointments that happens to us that would honour God, is not God’s doing at all. We live and we learn. Of course there others if I only had a chance to know them, would have told me that. Some people don’t have the luxury of such friends or a church that is educated in those areas either.

I have always had great problems with communicating with others. Thanks to being always extremely shy when I was young and all my breakdowns and social phobias, I didn’t have much of a chance to learn how to communicate with others. And when I tried most of the time I was rejected any way. So in the end you tend to not bother. And yet it is very clear in the bible to love one another as Christ loves you. Well I started complaining to God yesterday about it. Why do some people can love others so easily and with others it doesn’t matter how hard they try, it is always an uphill battle with them? God has been teaching me so much during this week, I am amazed.

God Has Position Us

The lesson He has taught me yesterday and I know there are plenty people out there that could of pointed me in the right direction. I feel I have been put in this situation for a reason. So that I have to learn it for myself without outside help, except under God’s supervision. I believe to teach others who are in a similar boat. And I do believe there are a lot of us out there. I have discovered so much about myself and my relationship with God, believe it or not since I have been practising self-deliverance. God has shown me one day how heavily cursed I am by other people and of course I have been cursing myself without realising it. I believe so many people are having the same problem and like me they didn’t or still yet don’t know about it. Curses is an ugly word and many churches are only preaching the nice things. That is not helping us at all, we do need to know all that is beautiful about our faith, but we also need to know how to win the spiritual battle that we are all facing.

I don’t know what ministers and priest are learning when they are getting train to become one, but I feel there is a lot they are not being taught that is necessary for all of us. I believing in experimenting with God. You learn a lot about Him and yourself that way too. Like imaging yourself cuddling up in His arms at night when you can’t sleep and it is especially helpful to me when I have times that I am fearful and don’t know why? Sometimes God lets me feel His love for me in a small way, but it is very real when He does. I would not experience that if I didn’t give it ago. So I would encourage you to try things out that you would do to a person that you love. Imaging yourself been cuddled by Him, kiss by Him, looking into one another’s eyes or just being together or doing things together. You might have a better imagination than I have. A good imagination used properly really can help out with your relationship with God.

You Will be Surprise What You can Cast Out In Jesus’s Name is(7)

Yesterday I decided I would in the powerful Name of Jesus cast out the evil spirits that are responsible for my social problems. To my surprise, it worked. So many demons and big one’s came out. I am not saying all the demons that deals with social problems went. And I am not saying that I won’t have to cast them out again throughout my life. Simply because in this world you can guarantee there will be plenty of times more cursers will come my way to attack me to prevent me from having the confidence or the encouragement to communicate to people. Remember Satan is prowling about to devour anybody he can. Cursing is a very serious matter and it is crippling people in God’s kingdom from doing what we are called to do. We need to learn how to do self-deliverance and churches should be very active in teaching their congregation how to. Because the problem is so great that we can’t rely on a few people who can cast demons out for us. Another thing when demons are cast out, many times I don’t notice any difference in my life straight away, but sometimes later I find I don’t have so many problems in that particular area. And yet other time I see an instant result, because of it. Also try casting out doubt and disbelief, you will be surprise how many of those demons come out in the name of Jesus.  Remember I am talking to born again Christians. If you are not born again, the chances are you need to be, before you can start casting out demons in Jesus’s name. You need to give your life up to Jesus and then you will be under His protection.

2 Thessalonians 3:3.. But the Lord is faithful. He will establish you and guard you against the evil one.


Growing Pains


is(14)God is calling us all to grow in faith like never before, I believe. Every time you face a difficulty you are force to grow in faith. If you refused to grow, you will always end up dropping your standards and before long you are lukewarm and going with the rest of the world. I believe the reason for this massive moment is obvious. Jesus is getting His church ready for a spiritual war like never before. Without the gifts of the Holy Spirit for example, I don’t believe we will survive. I believe we are going to be needing miracles on a daily basis. I remember reading a prophesy ages ago and it said that it is going to be normal for people to have the gift of casting out devils, because this gift is going to be so much in demand. I want to point out that you don’t have to be a bad person to be oppressed by demons. In some cases it is almost like catching a cold. They can enter into you through, excess fear or you may be too overcome by grief, for example. There is so many people who have been deeply hurt and are badly in need of healing. One way to look at it, the spiritual gifts are no longer a luxury for a few. It is now a necessity for the whole church to start calling on God, to help them grow in this area of service. Even if it is only to help out your own family and friends. You never know when you are going to be in need of them.

Expect The Unexpected with The Holy Spirit

By living in each moment with our Lord and just putting one foot in front of the other, you will be surprise what is around the corner. Just following His lead, something big can come out from something so small, you didn’t consider it was of any value. I have mention in another article that I have written, that I am making a very deliberate effort each day to put aside a time to pray in tongues, and I am finding it a challenge. It is not my favourite way of praying, but I know I would be mad not to. The Holy Spirit has been so kind to give me an English word over and over again. I thought at first to keep me satisfied. I have just found out today, He has not just been giving me an English word, but a word of knowledge. This is a brand new gift for me. I wrote down what I thought it meant in my journal and I had a full length page and a half of information that flowed out of me. When God speaks to you they say it just flows out of you. That happens to me when I am writing sometimes. So you can have gifts from God already and because there is no education out there, you are none the wiser. In other words you have a gift to help yourself and others, but haven’t been taught how to.

How I got into self-deliverance was a matter of urgency. I had to find a way to get sleep someway, and since the doctors, counsellors and etc. couldn’t help me. I had no choice but, to turn to God to learn how to do faith healing. The only means to learn, was from books and there are YouTube shows on the subject. Trial and error for some is the only way to learn that is available. I believe we all should start trying now whether you can find somebody to teach you or not.

Hebrews 4:16

 Let us then approach God’s throne of grace with confidence, so that we may receive mercy and find grace.

I had no one to help me, and if you are in the same boat, which I believe many are, why don’t you ask God to open your eyes to what gifts He wants you to have. Then start praying for it. Also find opportunities to use the gift. Ask God to train you to use it wisely for His glory. Faith is not always an easy grace to receive for some people. At one point I was asking for a miracle to happen and it wasn’t happening, then I thought well I will repent to God of my stubborn pride that refuses to believe in a child-like faith. So I did and the very next moment the pain went.

I often use other people’s prayers and then re- arrange them to my liking. I got this prayer original from a Catholic prayer book called ‘The Pieta Prayer Book.’ You can get it on the internet. My version of it is;

Eternal Daddy

Eternal Daddy, I love you, I offer up the Sacred Heart of Y’shua. With all its love and all its sufferings and all its merits for… (You make your request, I usually keep it very simple, to the point and I say the whole prayer over and over again using the rosary beads. It is entirely up to you how you want to do it.)

I know God loves this prayer and highly approves of it. He has shown me a vision of God the Father looking down on His Son’s Heart and He doesn’t even look at the request. It is automatically answered. Now of course Jesus would never offer His Heart to anybody, especially to His Father if it is not in keeping with the Will of Our Heavenly Father. If you asking something that doesn’t honour God’s nature, then you know it will be a no. Sometimes you have to just keep it up. And if you want a prayer answered quiet often you also need to do your bit. Somebody I knew had the gift of prophecy and she told somebody they will get a job. The man just laid down on the lounge expecting a phone call, without any effort on his part and of course the phone never rang for him. He end up going out and looking for a job, which he did find. So you do usually have to do your bit as well.


How Does Your Faith Open Doors for You?

We are taught not to ask for signs, but sometimes we see stories in the bible like Gideon (I think I spelt the name right) who ask if it was really God speaking to Him would He give him a sign. So he asked if the grass would have frost but not the sheep. God did that and still Gideon was not so sure, so He asked God to put the frost on the sheep but not on the grass, and so God did. There are at times I have asked for signs and God has been very kind to me and has done that for me. But sometimes I don’t ask for signs and yet God will give them to me, to encourage me to believe. The one that comes to my mind is coughing, whenever an evil spirit leaves me, I cough. The greater the cough means the bigger and more demons I know have left me. Sometimes I cough so much that I vomit and I know something really big has left me and I always notice I have more freedom after it.

I have checked with my doctor and I am fine. So it is definitely a demon that has left me. Sometimes demons will go through crying and burping or yawning with me. Sometimes I complain and ask God if He just gets rid of the demons without me coughing all the time. It is hard work, when you have to keep coughing. The problem with that pray, He knows me better than I know myself and coughing gives me the confidence that a demon has left me. I remember decades ago I had suffered with agonising evil thoughts for years that I had no control over. I saw what I called my troubles back then not realising they were evil spirits that God was removing from me effortlessly. I just felt a great weight left me. God can get rid of demons without you knowing it.


When I first found out about curses I wondered how many curses were on me, so I asked God and immediately felt a gigantic weight on me. I thought to myself how could I have so heavy and so many, since I am just a quiet person who basically keeps to myself? I don’t go around making enemies, so how come I have been so heavily cursed. I thought people wouldn’t even know that I existed, I was so quiet. Well I have been thinking about it again that not long ago and realised that generational curses are huge, going back many generations, then I have been cursed as a child at school by my teachers and the children from school, friends, workmates, when I sin against God, for example a couple of big ones are gossiping and judging others unfairly and those who have gossiped and still are about me, then you got people cursing you for what gender you belong to, religion the country, race you belong to also. It just keeps going on and on. And what about the curses you have cursed yourself and all Satan’s children who are cursing you deliberately on a daily basis.  I always marvelled at how God has always protected me against the odds, now I am now even more amazed, because I realise now I don’t even know the half of it.

Getting back to what I was writing about. I have been learning about self-deliverance for about eighteen months now. It all started because I couldn’t sleep and was getting so weak I knew if this continued I would be too weak to live. I knew my time hadn’t come yet, because there were a few prophecies on my life that hadn’t been yet accomplished. So one thing leads to another and I started reading on self-deliverance and tried it on myself. Very slow success, because of my lack of knowledge, experience and faith. I would of love to have a personal teacher, to help me out, but since very few churches are living out the full Gospel, I couldn’t find a teacher that could help me. So I am self-taught and still have a lot to learn.

Learn Little At a Time

Jesus teachers me a little at a time. For starters I have to learn to listen to Him and recognise His voice. Once again no teacher. I receive visitations and visions from Him for many years, but that is not what I am talking about. God is talking to us all the time, most of us haven’t learnt how to recognise Him when He does yet. I wish the churches was doing their job properly. I know some churches are working on it and I do really respect them, but many churches are just theory and no action. Unfortunately my faith works this way, when I cough I know for certain a demon has left me. Plenty of times I have been minding my own business and something really touches my heart and brings me closer to God’s heart with extra affection than normal. Then I notice I start coughing and realise God just got rid of a demon. I don’t even know what demon He got rid of was, but I do know He got rid of one. He does that a lot. You are not asking a demon to go, but because you are more affection than normal, God will reward you by healing you or delivering you. I remember reading what Jesus said to Gabrielle Bossis in the book “He and i” that ‘your love for Me purifies yourself’ which is what I am noticing all the time. I am doing more and more experiments with God. And I wish I have had done this decades ago. Experimenting with God is fun and I learn a lot that way.

My latest experiment I did this morning. I was worried about a certain person who has a tendency when things get really rough, they want to commit suicide and have even made a few attempts, so it is very worrying to me. I have only tried self-deliverance but this time I decided to call on the name of Jesus and demand the suicide spirit to leave. Guess what! I started coughing. And I thought am I coughing for other people too? I think I am. You don’t know how many times I start coughing when I am writing an article for my blog or faithwriters. That is how God teachers me and encourages me to believe. It works! that’s why He teachers me this way. I wish there was an easier way, but I am a tough student to teach. That just how it is. God has infinite patience with us, we should really appreciate that. So do some experimenting with God and see what happens!

P.S. try writing an article while your cat is insisting on attention all the way through it and knocking everything down in site. She is so inquisitive and loves affection and is very, very demanding. I should of close the door on her, but I am soft towards her.

Satan Promises Many Things, All Lies of course!

At the age of twenty two years, I had just converted to the Catholic faith and became a very strong believer in the power of prayer. So I attracted a lot of attention from Satan, who did what he could to either tempt me or scare me away from my calling as a prayer warrior. He does this to everybody who is a threat to him and you can easily become one, just obey God and fulfil your calling whatever it is well and you have got Satan’s attention. When we give our all to God we become a dangerous threat to him. Unfortunately he has successfully scared or tempted people away from their most powerful calling, through his lies that he is greater and more powerful than God. If you remember the one in you is greater than the one in the world and that if you don’t give up on God, God will not give up on you. Do you think God is going to abandon you? Of course not, He is going to make you even stronger and wiser than ever before. With more knowledge on how Satan works and how he is doomed to fail, because he is so small before God he is only a speck, easily dealt with.

Fighting Satan

If we try to fight Satan using our own strength than we have indeed lost the war before we even began. We are only victorious in Christ. We just have to trust Christ and obey Him that is all. God has a master plan that no one knows about even Satan. It seems God always has to test us first, see how far we are willing to go for Him and then when we think all is lost that is when God most likely comes to our rescue. In such a powerful way we than marvel at how brilliant our God is. He knows all secrets and is all powerful and is humble enough to wait for the right moment to bring down His enemies. Remember Jesus was treated the same way. Jesus is our example, if we follow Him we won’t be let down, because Jesus is the only one that knows the way and is the way.

Luke 4:1-2. Jesus, full of the Holy Spirit, left the Jordan and was led by the Spirit into the wilderness. Where for forty days he was tempted by the devil. He ate nothing during those days, and at the end of them he was hungry.

Satan can and does try similar things out with us. Not long after my conversion to take prayer very seriously and pray for conversion of souls amongst other things. Satan gave me a vision and it reminded me of the temptations that he tried on Jesus. During this vision of Satan I was terrified, because it was so beautiful I had to keep telling myself that this vision was from Satan and not from God. I saw myself on top of a high cliff and I had reigns on like they use to put on small children to keep them safe, so they wouldn’t dash out on the road and get killed, before their mothers could catch them, I still think that is a very good idea. The reigns that I had on had a very, very long leash. I knew intuitively if I fell off the cliff by buying into the lie of Satan, I knew if I called out for help and then the angle who was holding the leash of my reigns would immediately pull me up. It gave me some comfort to know that, but I still had to fight the temptation off with all my might.

Vision from Satan

Satan showed me if I followed him all cities and even the harbours would be so clean. The harbour was so clean and beautiful it was like an Olympics swimming pool it was that clean. I managed by the skin of my teeth to stay firm and refuse to give into the temptation. Since I refused to give in to Satan, he then was showing off, by showing me all the people he had in very important positions of authority and influence and bragged and said ‘how are you going to win if you stay with God, when I have so many people holding these positions.’ I just stayed closed to God by my many prayers and then the vision was over.

You can imagine how I feel when I see how dirty the cities are and their harbours are today. Satan does lie through his teeth, he will say anything to get you in. I just want to mention one more experience to shows us up. I was about the same age again and I was in the train going to work and I was thinking of the time when Jesus was in the desert being tempted by the devil. This experienced happened before I had the vision I just explained. I thought to myself that Jesus wasn’t really that tempted, because he was God. Immediately God had to put me in my place by letting me experience a taste of what Jesus temptation was like and I was so afraid I didn’t believe my faith was going to make it, because I felt my faith sliding off me rapidly and I prayed and in God’s great mercy He lifted the temptation off immediately. Sometimes we need to be put into our place. Not only because we are so ignorant, but I believe most of the time our ignorance is due to our arrogance.

Supernatural Gifts

I hope people who read my articles about the different supernatural experiences I have had that I am not bragging to you about them. I am afraid I could not find the verse that I was looking for in the bible, but it well known text about some of the signs that will take place in the last days for example prophesy will be common place and old man will dream dreams and so on. If you are not experiencing any of these things, Saint Teresa says that the reason maybe, because you are stronger in the Lord so you don’t need them. I also believe it could also mean it will come later when God thinks you are ready for it. Many people will tell you to keep pressing in, keep asking and yearning for the gifts of God so that you can be used by Him, but never ask for His gifts for your own glory, you will lose your soul that way. I was told by Jesus a few times, I have to write and I tell Him every now and again that I can only write what I write, because I don’t know what else to write. I feel sometimes He lets me know when He is not with me, because when He is not, the article is never a good one, I still publish them though. I believe He leaves me to myself to protect me and show me always I cannot do anything well without God. when He is with me the articles seem to be gentler and has things said that I feel people have a genuine need of.