What to Look Out for

Have you ever notice how with good people, say who are trying to make an honest living by starting their own business and not only does it fail, while other people who are not in alignment with God prospers so well. They find this is also happening in many other areas of their lives too. I have always wondered about things like that. I trusted God still, I just thought I will just offer all my misfortune up for souls and know that I will rewarded one day in heaven. And I still believe that, but now I am realising that much disappointments that happens to us that would honour God, is not God’s doing at all. We live and we learn. Of course there others if I only had a chance to know them, would have told me that. Some people don’t have the luxury of such friends or a church that is educated in those areas either.

I have always had great problems with communicating with others. Thanks to being always extremely shy when I was young and all my breakdowns and social phobias, I didn’t have much of a chance to learn how to communicate with others. And when I tried most of the time I was rejected any way. So in the end you tend to not bother. And yet it is very clear in the bible to love one another as Christ loves you. Well I started complaining to God yesterday about it. Why do some people can love others so easily and with others it doesn’t matter how hard they try, it is always an uphill battle with them? God has been teaching me so much during this week, I am amazed.

God Has Position Us

The lesson He has taught me yesterday and I know there are plenty people out there that could of pointed me in the right direction. I feel I have been put in this situation for a reason. So that I have to learn it for myself without outside help, except under God’s supervision. I believe to teach others who are in a similar boat. And I do believe there are a lot of us out there. I have discovered so much about myself and my relationship with God, believe it or not since I have been practising self-deliverance. God has shown me one day how heavily cursed I am by other people and of course I have been cursing myself without realising it. I believe so many people are having the same problem and like me they didn’t or still yet don’t know about it. Curses is an ugly word and many churches are only preaching the nice things. That is not helping us at all, we do need to know all that is beautiful about our faith, but we also need to know how to win the spiritual battle that we are all facing.

I don’t know what ministers and priest are learning when they are getting train to become one, but I feel there is a lot they are not being taught that is necessary for all of us. I believing in experimenting with God. You learn a lot about Him and yourself that way too. Like imaging yourself cuddling up in His arms at night when you can’t sleep and it is especially helpful to me when I have times that I am fearful and don’t know why? Sometimes God lets me feel His love for me in a small way, but it is very real when He does. I would not experience that if I didn’t give it ago. So I would encourage you to try things out that you would do to a person that you love. Imaging yourself been cuddled by Him, kiss by Him, looking into one another’s eyes or just being together or doing things together. You might have a better imagination than I have. A good imagination used properly really can help out with your relationship with God.

You Will be Surprise What You can Cast Out In Jesus’s Name is(7)

Yesterday I decided I would in the powerful Name of Jesus cast out the evil spirits that are responsible for my social problems. To my surprise, it worked. So many demons and big one’s came out. I am not saying all the demons that deals with social problems went. And I am not saying that I won’t have to cast them out again throughout my life. Simply because in this world you can guarantee there will be plenty of times more cursers will come my way to attack me to prevent me from having the confidence or the encouragement to communicate to people. Remember Satan is prowling about to devour anybody he can. Cursing is a very serious matter and it is crippling people in God’s kingdom from doing what we are called to do. We need to learn how to do self-deliverance and churches should be very active in teaching their congregation how to. Because the problem is so great that we can’t rely on a few people who can cast demons out for us. Another thing when demons are cast out, many times I don’t notice any difference in my life straight away, but sometimes later I find I don’t have so many problems in that particular area. And yet other time I see an instant result, because of it. Also try casting out doubt and disbelief, you will be surprise how many of those demons come out in the name of Jesus.  Remember I am talking to born again Christians. If you are not born again, the chances are you need to be, before you can start casting out demons in Jesus’s name. You need to give your life up to Jesus and then you will be under His protection.

2 Thessalonians 3:3.. But the Lord is faithful. He will establish you and guard you against the evil one.


Growing Pains


is(14)God is calling us all to grow in faith like never before, I believe. Every time you face a difficulty you are force to grow in faith. If you refused to grow, you will always end up dropping your standards and before long you are lukewarm and going with the rest of the world. I believe the reason for this massive moment is obvious. Jesus is getting His church ready for a spiritual war like never before. Without the gifts of the Holy Spirit for example, I don’t believe we will survive. I believe we are going to be needing miracles on a daily basis. I remember reading a prophesy ages ago and it said that it is going to be normal for people to have the gift of casting out devils, because this gift is going to be so much in demand. I want to point out that you don’t have to be a bad person to be oppressed by demons. In some cases it is almost like catching a cold. They can enter into you through, excess fear or you may be too overcome by grief, for example. There is so many people who have been deeply hurt and are badly in need of healing. One way to look at it, the spiritual gifts are no longer a luxury for a few. It is now a necessity for the whole church to start calling on God, to help them grow in this area of service. Even if it is only to help out your own family and friends. You never know when you are going to be in need of them.

Expect The Unexpected with The Holy Spirit

By living in each moment with our Lord and just putting one foot in front of the other, you will be surprise what is around the corner. Just following His lead, something big can come out from something so small, you didn’t consider it was of any value. I have mention in another article that I have written, that I am making a very deliberate effort each day to put aside a time to pray in tongues, and I am finding it a challenge. It is not my favourite way of praying, but I know I would be mad not to. The Holy Spirit has been so kind to give me an English word over and over again. I thought at first to keep me satisfied. I have just found out today, He has not just been giving me an English word, but a word of knowledge. This is a brand new gift for me. I wrote down what I thought it meant in my journal and I had a full length page and a half of information that flowed out of me. When God speaks to you they say it just flows out of you. That happens to me when I am writing sometimes. So you can have gifts from God already and because there is no education out there, you are none the wiser. In other words you have a gift to help yourself and others, but haven’t been taught how to.

How I got into self-deliverance was a matter of urgency. I had to find a way to get sleep someway, and since the doctors, counsellors and etc. couldn’t help me. I had no choice but, to turn to God to learn how to do faith healing. The only means to learn, was from books and there are YouTube shows on the subject. Trial and error for some is the only way to learn that is available. I believe we all should start trying now whether you can find somebody to teach you or not.

Hebrews 4:16

 Let us then approach God’s throne of grace with confidence, so that we may receive mercy and find grace.

I had no one to help me, and if you are in the same boat, which I believe many are, why don’t you ask God to open your eyes to what gifts He wants you to have. Then start praying for it. Also find opportunities to use the gift. Ask God to train you to use it wisely for His glory. Faith is not always an easy grace to receive for some people. At one point I was asking for a miracle to happen and it wasn’t happening, then I thought well I will repent to God of my stubborn pride that refuses to believe in a child-like faith. So I did and the very next moment the pain went.

I often use other people’s prayers and then re- arrange them to my liking. I got this prayer original from a Catholic prayer book called ‘The Pieta Prayer Book.’ You can get it on the internet. My version of it is;

Eternal Daddy

Eternal Daddy, I love you, I offer up the Sacred Heart of Y’shua. With all its love and all its sufferings and all its merits for… (You make your request, I usually keep it very simple, to the point and I say the whole prayer over and over again using the rosary beads. It is entirely up to you how you want to do it.)

I know God loves this prayer and highly approves of it. He has shown me a vision of God the Father looking down on His Son’s Heart and He doesn’t even look at the request. It is automatically answered. Now of course Jesus would never offer His Heart to anybody, especially to His Father if it is not in keeping with the Will of Our Heavenly Father. If you asking something that doesn’t honour God’s nature, then you know it will be a no. Sometimes you have to just keep it up. And if you want a prayer answered quiet often you also need to do your bit. Somebody I knew had the gift of prophecy and she told somebody they will get a job. The man just laid down on the lounge expecting a phone call, without any effort on his part and of course the phone never rang for him. He end up going out and looking for a job, which he did find. So you do usually have to do your bit as well.


How Does Your Faith Open Doors for You?

We are taught not to ask for signs, but sometimes we see stories in the bible like Gideon (I think I spelt the name right) who ask if it was really God speaking to Him would He give him a sign. So he asked if the grass would have frost but not the sheep. God did that and still Gideon was not so sure, so He asked God to put the frost on the sheep but not on the grass, and so God did. There are at times I have asked for signs and God has been very kind to me and has done that for me. But sometimes I don’t ask for signs and yet God will give them to me, to encourage me to believe. The one that comes to my mind is coughing, whenever an evil spirit leaves me, I cough. The greater the cough means the bigger and more demons I know have left me. Sometimes I cough so much that I vomit and I know something really big has left me and I always notice I have more freedom after it.

I have checked with my doctor and I am fine. So it is definitely a demon that has left me. Sometimes demons will go through crying and burping or yawning with me. Sometimes I complain and ask God if He just gets rid of the demons without me coughing all the time. It is hard work, when you have to keep coughing. The problem with that pray, He knows me better than I know myself and coughing gives me the confidence that a demon has left me. I remember decades ago I had suffered with agonising evil thoughts for years that I had no control over. I saw what I called my troubles back then not realising they were evil spirits that God was removing from me effortlessly. I just felt a great weight left me. God can get rid of demons without you knowing it.


When I first found out about curses I wondered how many curses were on me, so I asked God and immediately felt a gigantic weight on me. I thought to myself how could I have so heavy and so many, since I am just a quiet person who basically keeps to myself? I don’t go around making enemies, so how come I have been so heavily cursed. I thought people wouldn’t even know that I existed, I was so quiet. Well I have been thinking about it again that not long ago and realised that generational curses are huge, going back many generations, then I have been cursed as a child at school by my teachers and the children from school, friends, workmates, when I sin against God, for example a couple of big ones are gossiping and judging others unfairly and those who have gossiped and still are about me, then you got people cursing you for what gender you belong to, religion the country, race you belong to also. It just keeps going on and on. And what about the curses you have cursed yourself and all Satan’s children who are cursing you deliberately on a daily basis.  I always marvelled at how God has always protected me against the odds, now I am now even more amazed, because I realise now I don’t even know the half of it.

Getting back to what I was writing about. I have been learning about self-deliverance for about eighteen months now. It all started because I couldn’t sleep and was getting so weak I knew if this continued I would be too weak to live. I knew my time hadn’t come yet, because there were a few prophecies on my life that hadn’t been yet accomplished. So one thing leads to another and I started reading on self-deliverance and tried it on myself. Very slow success, because of my lack of knowledge, experience and faith. I would of love to have a personal teacher, to help me out, but since very few churches are living out the full Gospel, I couldn’t find a teacher that could help me. So I am self-taught and still have a lot to learn.

Learn Little At a Time

Jesus teachers me a little at a time. For starters I have to learn to listen to Him and recognise His voice. Once again no teacher. I receive visitations and visions from Him for many years, but that is not what I am talking about. God is talking to us all the time, most of us haven’t learnt how to recognise Him when He does yet. I wish the churches was doing their job properly. I know some churches are working on it and I do really respect them, but many churches are just theory and no action. Unfortunately my faith works this way, when I cough I know for certain a demon has left me. Plenty of times I have been minding my own business and something really touches my heart and brings me closer to God’s heart with extra affection than normal. Then I notice I start coughing and realise God just got rid of a demon. I don’t even know what demon He got rid of was, but I do know He got rid of one. He does that a lot. You are not asking a demon to go, but because you are more affection than normal, God will reward you by healing you or delivering you. I remember reading what Jesus said to Gabrielle Bossis in the book “He and i” that ‘your love for Me purifies yourself’ which is what I am noticing all the time. I am doing more and more experiments with God. And I wish I have had done this decades ago. Experimenting with God is fun and I learn a lot that way.

My latest experiment I did this morning. I was worried about a certain person who has a tendency when things get really rough, they want to commit suicide and have even made a few attempts, so it is very worrying to me. I have only tried self-deliverance but this time I decided to call on the name of Jesus and demand the suicide spirit to leave. Guess what! I started coughing. And I thought am I coughing for other people too? I think I am. You don’t know how many times I start coughing when I am writing an article for my blog or faithwriters. That is how God teachers me and encourages me to believe. It works! that’s why He teachers me this way. I wish there was an easier way, but I am a tough student to teach. That just how it is. God has infinite patience with us, we should really appreciate that. So do some experimenting with God and see what happens!

P.S. try writing an article while your cat is insisting on attention all the way through it and knocking everything down in site. She is so inquisitive and loves affection and is very, very demanding. I should of close the door on her, but I am soft towards her.

Satan Promises Many Things, All Lies of course!

At the age of twenty two years, I had just converted to the Catholic faith and became a very strong believer in the power of prayer. So I attracted a lot of attention from Satan, who did what he could to either tempt me or scare me away from my calling as a prayer warrior. He does this to everybody who is a threat to him and you can easily become one, just obey God and fulfil your calling whatever it is well and you have got Satan’s attention. When we give our all to God we become a dangerous threat to him. Unfortunately he has successfully scared or tempted people away from their most powerful calling, through his lies that he is greater and more powerful than God. If you remember the one in you is greater than the one in the world and that if you don’t give up on God, God will not give up on you. Do you think God is going to abandon you? Of course not, He is going to make you even stronger and wiser than ever before. With more knowledge on how Satan works and how he is doomed to fail, because he is so small before God he is only a speck, easily dealt with.

Fighting Satan

If we try to fight Satan using our own strength than we have indeed lost the war before we even began. We are only victorious in Christ. We just have to trust Christ and obey Him that is all. God has a master plan that no one knows about even Satan. It seems God always has to test us first, see how far we are willing to go for Him and then when we think all is lost that is when God most likely comes to our rescue. In such a powerful way we than marvel at how brilliant our God is. He knows all secrets and is all powerful and is humble enough to wait for the right moment to bring down His enemies. Remember Jesus was treated the same way. Jesus is our example, if we follow Him we won’t be let down, because Jesus is the only one that knows the way and is the way.

Luke 4:1-2. Jesus, full of the Holy Spirit, left the Jordan and was led by the Spirit into the wilderness. Where for forty days he was tempted by the devil. He ate nothing during those days, and at the end of them he was hungry.

Satan can and does try similar things out with us. Not long after my conversion to take prayer very seriously and pray for conversion of souls amongst other things. Satan gave me a vision and it reminded me of the temptations that he tried on Jesus. During this vision of Satan I was terrified, because it was so beautiful I had to keep telling myself that this vision was from Satan and not from God. I saw myself on top of a high cliff and I had reigns on like they use to put on small children to keep them safe, so they wouldn’t dash out on the road and get killed, before their mothers could catch them, I still think that is a very good idea. The reigns that I had on had a very, very long leash. I knew intuitively if I fell off the cliff by buying into the lie of Satan, I knew if I called out for help and then the angle who was holding the leash of my reigns would immediately pull me up. It gave me some comfort to know that, but I still had to fight the temptation off with all my might.

Vision from Satan

Satan showed me if I followed him all cities and even the harbours would be so clean. The harbour was so clean and beautiful it was like an Olympics swimming pool it was that clean. I managed by the skin of my teeth to stay firm and refuse to give into the temptation. Since I refused to give in to Satan, he then was showing off, by showing me all the people he had in very important positions of authority and influence and bragged and said ‘how are you going to win if you stay with God, when I have so many people holding these positions.’ I just stayed closed to God by my many prayers and then the vision was over.

You can imagine how I feel when I see how dirty the cities are and their harbours are today. Satan does lie through his teeth, he will say anything to get you in. I just want to mention one more experience to shows us up. I was about the same age again and I was in the train going to work and I was thinking of the time when Jesus was in the desert being tempted by the devil. This experienced happened before I had the vision I just explained. I thought to myself that Jesus wasn’t really that tempted, because he was God. Immediately God had to put me in my place by letting me experience a taste of what Jesus temptation was like and I was so afraid I didn’t believe my faith was going to make it, because I felt my faith sliding off me rapidly and I prayed and in God’s great mercy He lifted the temptation off immediately. Sometimes we need to be put into our place. Not only because we are so ignorant, but I believe most of the time our ignorance is due to our arrogance.

Supernatural Gifts

I hope people who read my articles about the different supernatural experiences I have had that I am not bragging to you about them. I am afraid I could not find the verse that I was looking for in the bible, but it well known text about some of the signs that will take place in the last days for example prophesy will be common place and old man will dream dreams and so on. If you are not experiencing any of these things, Saint Teresa says that the reason maybe, because you are stronger in the Lord so you don’t need them. I also believe it could also mean it will come later when God thinks you are ready for it. Many people will tell you to keep pressing in, keep asking and yearning for the gifts of God so that you can be used by Him, but never ask for His gifts for your own glory, you will lose your soul that way. I was told by Jesus a few times, I have to write and I tell Him every now and again that I can only write what I write, because I don’t know what else to write. I feel sometimes He lets me know when He is not with me, because when He is not, the article is never a good one, I still publish them though. I believe He leaves me to myself to protect me and show me always I cannot do anything well without God. when He is with me the articles seem to be gentler and has things said that I feel people have a genuine need of.


Lies of Satan

While more and more people are blindly following the occult and not aware of the dangers of where it is all going to lead them in the end. There are people leaving the occult and warning us of the different types of traps are set up for the innocent to be trapped by. Even toys are designed to darken the souls of the little ones. Some of the traps are obvious to a devout believer in Christ but not all. For example how many people know the peace sign is an occult sign. What about the Christmas trees and all the things that go with Christmas except of course the pure worship and celebration of Jesus Christ birth. Satan will have you believe something is very harmless and just a little fun, but there is an interior motive behind it. I have been trapped in thinking something was harmless, but I was blessed in that I didn’t let my prayer and worship life go, so God was able to warn me. If your pray life and daily worship time is not important, and if you were to give up on it, you are exposing yourselves to serve danger and will become vulnerable. Especially in these days we live in. Satan I think is really enjoying himself in this era, because of how many people he is able to deceive in this present age.

Dangers in Some Churches

Even in Christian activities such as casting out devils in Jesus’s name. You wouldn’t think there could be any possible harm in that. There is black magic even in churches disguised as coming from the Holy Spirit to get you in. Innocent people are not aware of it they are too trusting. Some people are so sweet and innocent they think everybody is like them. If somebody smiles at them they do not doubt they are sincere. They cannot discern the wolf in sheep’s clothing at all and they are many of those running the churches. Now of course there are much more I believe that are genuine it is just you have to do what Jesus tells you. If their deeds don’t match up to their words there is something wrong or if they are constantly watering down the meaning of God’s words they are not Children of God.

Matthew 7:15-18

Watch out for false prophets. They come to you in sheep’s clothing, but inwardly they are ferocious wolves. By their fruit you will recognize them. Do people pick grapes from thornbushes, or figs from thistles? Likewise, every good tree bears good fruit, but a bad tree bears bad fruit. A good tree cannot bear bad fruit, and a bad tree cannot bear good fruit.

I think there is another verses that is very important to remember Matthew 7:21-23, because while the Holy Spirit is pouring out His gifts like never before and there is much more to come, Satan too is working hard at deceiving people by imitating God’s Spirit. When the Holy Spirit heals you, you are healed indeed, but if it is the devil at work you might feel good for a little while and then you become worse off than before. Now there are plenty times the Holy Spirit will heal and the sickness comes back, because the person didn’t change their life style to serve the Lord. In other words they are not even making the attempt to live the Holy life that God expects of them. Or they start listening to Satan’s lies when he tells them that they are not really healed or it won’t last long or whatever. When the Holy Spirit heals them it has no bad side-affects, but if it is Satan’s spirit so called healing them, they have just allowed an evil spirit enter in them.

Fighting The Good Fight

I have been learning how to call on Jesus’s name for self-deliverance I think for nearly eighteen months now. On one hand I can see I am growing and getting rid of demons and on the other hand it seems more keep coming back to attack me. We are at war, we must remember that. The thing is as I am learning more without a teacher, because there is no one to be found, I am learning so much more how God has been protecting me over the years and I am so amazed. If Satan is attacking you that is a very good sign, even if you don’t like it, because it means that Satan’s plans are not going to plan, because you are fighting the good fight and are wining through the merits of Jesus Christ. If you are not a danger to his plans he will gladly leave you be, because you are not a threat to him, you are asleep and that is how he likes it.

Matthew 7:21-23

“Not everyone who says to me, ‘Lord, Lord.’ Will enter the kingdom of heaven, but only the one who does the will of my Father who is in heaven. Many will say to me on that day, ‘Lord, Lord, did we not prophesy in your name and in your name drive out demons and in your name perform many miracles?’ Then I will tell them plainly. ‘I never knew you. Away from me, you evildoers!’

I believe some people will know they are so called casting out evil spirits through black magic, because they are working for the devil, but I also believe some are not aware of it. They think they are great and better than others and that is why they think they have the gifts of the Holy Spirit, which in fact they do not have. And there are others who have been blessed with the gifts of the Holy Spirit, but are not humble about it and do it for their glory and not God’s. I am not a person who is an expert on this subject, but it is what I have seen and heard others speak about. So I take note.

We All Have Demons to Fight

I remember I belonged to a prayer group and we had a meeting. There was priest that came and he was truly what you would refer to as a lamb of God, he was so meek and gentle. One day he walked into the room and it was like a great wind came into the room. It reminded me of the description of when the Holy Spirit came upon the disciples at Pentecostal day. His eyes looked like they were on fire and it scared my demons like you wouldn’t believe. They wanted me to run out of the building and I wouldn’t, because I said to myself this house is the house of God and I belong here. Now people are probably scratching their heads and asking themselves what is a Christian doing having demons. You will be surprised to know how many demons are out there and how many Christians are suffering from them through things like being cursed by others, who keeps judging them or generational curses or the times or when we cursed ourselves or when the people of the occult deliberately curse us or when we have committed sins and we all have done that.

If people knew what we are fighting against, they would be horrified if it wasn’t for the knowledge the one in us is stronger than the one in the world. I would have died in the few minuets I was born, but thanks to a doctor that would have been in danger of being sued today. I was born asleep and I wouldn’t breathe, and in desperation after doing everything possible time was running out, he threw me up in the air and I fell and landed on the mattress and took my first breath that way. God is always been keeping me alive against all the odds. I am amazed how God has always stepped in and looked after me, so would you if you stopped and looked back at your life and start counting how many times God has come to your rescue. So start praying to be ready when Jesus comes for His church we don’t want to be left behind. Get your house in order while you still have time.

Try This You Might Be Surprised of The Results

is(14)This is just an idea, I got the idea to declare the word of God by somebody on Sid Roth’s show, but I changed it a little and you will probably prefer to use different names of God or different verses from the bible, it is really more important that you use what is meaningful to you. I will write some names of God just to start with. As an example I have used these six names of God and in this case we use all six names of God declaring the same affirmation.

God of the Armies of Israel. … Remember Christians are called the spiritual Israel.

Prince of Peace

God My Shepherd

The Lion out of the Tribe of Judah

God the Resurrection and the Life

The Author of Life


So you have got the idea, just choose any names that belongs to God that affects your heart most strongly. I have just done an example for you below. You can use this method for so many things.


I Declare the God of the Armies of Israel to serve you accordingly to your holy Will in all areas of my life.

I Declare the Prince of Peace to serve you accordingly to your holy Will in all areas of my life.

I Declare God My shepherd to serve you according to your holy Will in all areas of my life.

I Declare the Lion out of the Tribe of Judah to serve you according to Your Holy Will in all areas of my life.

I Declare God the Resurrection and the Life to serve you according to Your Holy Will in all areas of my life.

I Declare the Author of Life to serve you according to You Holy Will in all areas of my life.

You can use any affirmation you want and need to; like healing, deliverance etc. Or even Declaring for something you need to day, like a parcel of the post office to arrive soon. Anything at all.

Another example to give you more confidence say in healing.

I Declare the God of the Armies of Israel that I am healed and delivered of ….

I Declare the Prince of Peace that I am healed and delivered of ….

I Declare the God My shepherd that I am healed and delivered of …..

I Declare the Lion out of the Tribe of Judah that I am healed and delivered of ….

I Declare God the Resurrection and the Life that I am healed and delivered of ….

I Declare the Author of Life that I am healed and delivered of ….

I think you now have a very good idea of what I mean. I just like to be thorough. Something I did one night and it seems to be even more powerful for healing.

They say we have two main demons you have to get rid of first and then all the other demons are a lot easier to get out. One demon is low self-esteem and the other is insecurity. All other demons apparently are attached to one or the other of these demons.

Instead of a name of God you may use a verse in the bible that is real meaningful to you and it strengthens you when you say it. I used this verse

The Lord is my rock and my fortress and my deliver; my God, my  strength, in whom I will trust; my shield and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold.

Here is an example

I Declare that I am no longer afraid to speak my mind to anybody, because the Lord is my rock and my fortress and my deliver; my God, my strength, in whom I will trust; my shield and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold – is with me.

Another example

I Declare that I am now ready to fulfil my destiny in God, because the Lord is my rock and my fortress and my deliver; my God, my strength, in whom I will trust; my shield and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold – is with me.

I Declare that I am healed of neck pain because the Lord is my rock and my fortress and my deliver; my God, my strength, in whom I will trust; my shield and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold –  is with me.

I have written down 20 names of God sometimes, for things that I am declaring God will do for me. After I do it many times I start to feel the Holy Spirit in me and I know something is up and then after a while I start crying and I know God is healing me. You say it out loud not from your head, but from your heart and you have to be humble and acknowledge your nothingness before God. Once I was doing it and I was crying because He was healing me and then I thought this would make a good article and straight away the healing stopped. So the next day when I did it again and God was healing me, I kept very humble and the healing lasted a long period of time. God is healing me of emotional pain at the moment and He is casting out a lot of demons. Some people are very lucky and get healed overnight, but not for me. I think God is using this healing process to teach me a lot about myself, that I need to change. I have given this form to another person and she said she hadn’t cried for years and years and when she did this, she cried like a baby. Sometimes you suffer so deeply you can’t cry anymore and as we all know a good cry releases us of all sorts of trauma’s we go through or have gone through in the past.



There Are Many Members but, We Are All Members of Christ

We would think it very strange is somebody was trying to use their foot as if it is an eye right? But that is what we are trying to do every time we try to be like somebody else. God is a very generous God and we all have work to accomplish in His Kingdom. We all can’t be carpenters for example. Somebody has to grow our food, help out in different emergencies, raise children, clean houses and etc. Can you imagine if we all had the same job to do, everything would fall apart!

Everybody Has Different Gifts

What has confused me over the years is when people receive a gift from God, they have such easy access to it and they presume it should be like that way to all Christians. My very first experience of it, I had a friend who was very gifted as a seer. She would ask Jesus a question and He spoke to her straight away. So if we asked her a question, she would say why don’t you ask God? And we would look at one another and respond to her and say, ‘because we do not have that gift.’ And then in my search for miraculous healing from God, it very rarely came spontaneously. I seemed to have more access to get rid of evil spirits associated with stress and spirits that tempt you strongly in all sorts of areas such as rebellion in me. God has not called me to do this with other people, but he has given me the gift to teach others how to do this for themselves. So I am finally learning that if God wants you to work in a certain area, He will give you the gifts that you will need in that area. It is no point for God to give you the gift of healing if He wants you to expressively work in deliverance as an example.

We Are Specially Be Called

I remember reading a person who had a very powerful ministry in healing cancer. It was a full time job just to pray over people with cancer. He was a very busy man. The thing was he himself was suffering from cancer and God didn’t heal him of it. The man was humble enough to realise it is was in God’s hands not his. Another thing I read about was Saint Peter the disciple and apostle of Jesus Christ, was such a powerful healer. According to a book I read ‘the twelve disciples’ St. Peter’s shadow would heal people. Apparently St. Peter had an only daughter who was crippled, that he was not able to heal. I think God does that for our protection, so that it won’t go to our heads and we start to think it is ourselves that is healing people.

Look at doctors, you will have the general practitioner and then you have many different specialist, concentrating on a specific thing. They are all necessary to help people, but they are all in different areas of healing. When I finally realize that, it calm me down. And like, 1 Corinthians 12. 1-31 points this out very well.

1 Corinthians 12. 29-30. Are all apostles? Are all prophets? Are all teachers? Do all work miracles? Do all have gifts of healing? Do all speak in tongues? Do all interpret?

We All Have Special Work To Do

Now I know we are all called to work for the Kingdom of God. So if we are faithful to Him we will all have spiritual gifts now or are waiting for us to receive. When I was young I read the different Catholic Saints, they would have all these spiritual gifts like miraculous and creative healing and etc. And they all practised self-denial, which Jesus tells us to do and then pick up our cross daily and follow Him. When I was young I followed the advice and some examples of the saints. After approximately thirty years, I didn’t have these gifts and I was angry and hurt with God for not giving them to me. About a couple of months later I started to realise I didn’t have those gifts, but I was receiving a gift in wisdom and I was comforted. It wasn’t the gift I was searching for, but I realise it was a good gift from God. I was very honoured that God would give it to me. In other words I realised I did nothing to deserve it. And I knew I would not be able to explain to people that we all need wisdom and it is a very good gift from God to have. People want the spectacular things such as the miraculous including me.

1 Corinthians 12. 22-23. On the contrary, those parts of the body that seem to be weaker are indispensable, and the parts that we think are less honourable we treat with special honour.

Don’t Compare Yourself With Another

So we need not complain about our gifts from God. They are the right ones for us. God also knows what we can handle. As life goes on it may take a different direction and we may then receive different gifts from what we are used to, but our gifts will come at the right time, if we are sincerely follow Jesus as He is calling us to do. Don’t measure yourself with other people, they are not you and they do not have the same gifts as you do or if they do they do not have them in the same way as you do. No two people are alike and we should not be intimidated by other people’s giftedness. God does not love one person more than another.




After I was converted in understanding the power of prayer, that you really can save souls by means of prayer. That there are sowers and reapers in God’s Kingdom. That we all have different callings from one another, and that the ministry of full time intercession prayer is a very important and a necessary calling, I started to get attack by demons on a regular basis. I would be attacked at least twice a week. My body would go paralysed and I found very early in the peace that I could not shout out for help. So I quickly learnt that I had to pray to be free of the demons that attack me. It was just me and God, there was no one else to help me.is(7)

Demons will try to Stop You from Your Calling

These demons believe in the power of prayer more than we do, because they see the results of our prayers and of course they do not want souls to be saved. The demons were attacking me, because they were desperately trying to stop me from fulfilling my calling, which I refuse to give up, because I knew I was making a difference by doing the will of God. My very first experience of being attack by a demon was so fierce that I knew intuitively that the name of Jesus was too long. I knew I could only use a word with one syllable in it. God really comes to our aid when we turn to Him with such urgency and knowledge that He is the only one that can help us. The perfect word came to me which was God’s doing and I called out to God in my mind ‘God, God ,God.” Very quickly and I mustered up all my faith and gave it to Him.

The demon was a very powerful one and to my complete surprise it vanished that fast, I believe it went as quickly as a blink of an eye. I was fighting with all my strength with a demon that was no longer there. After a little while it dawned on me that it was not there, because it went so quickly, I could not believe it had gone, so I went looking for it. I looked under my bed, it was not there, as I was going to open my wardrobe a thought came to me, I know it was God talking to me, He said ‘and once you have found the demon do you want another fight on your hands?’ Then I realised what I was doing and I said ‘no, if it is in the closet it can stay there.’

Helping Somebody to Fight their Demon

All this is leading up to another experience I had that might help somebody. I do not want to enclose the person it involves. This person just received the gift of prophesy and some other gifts. So she was new at it. She was conned by a demon thinking it was a good spirit, so she let it in, then found quickly it was a very powerful demon. Things happen when you least expect it. I was in the next room, and in she walks, you do not need somebody to tell you if a person is possessed by a demon or not. Their eyes speaks for itself. She told me that God said for her to come to me. And then I said to God ‘I do not know the first thing about helping somebody to be delivered from a demon.’  All I could think to do was to grab my rosary beads and then told her we will go to the next room where another Christian women was sleeping, as we walked in she had one look at her and knew she was possessed by a demon too. She picked up her rosary beads and we started to say the rosary over her.

Rosary is a Powerful Prayer

Half way through the rosary we looked at her and her eyes were calm again, we still knew the demon was there, but the young women was calm. She was a Protestant and she said that while we were saying the rosary she felt that it was very important that Mary was to be blessed. Now she said it not me. Then I had to give her some knowledge on how to help her to deliver herself from that demon. I only had that one demon attack that I mention at that time, so I had very little knowledge, but I had to give her what knowledge I had, because she did not have any knowledge at all.

I said to her ‘you will have to find out where your faith is strongest,’ I knew how she felt, she gave me a look as to say where am I going to find that out. And then I said to her ‘believe me you will find it.’ I gave her some suggestions. I said some people, the crown of thorns will be where their faith is strongest, with others it will be the blood of Jesus or maybe it is holy water, whatever it is put your whole faith into it and give it to God. She intuitively knew she had to face her room by herself and face the demon within her. She knew if she was too afraid to do that the demon will give her no peace at all whether she went.

Faith moves Mountains

Now her faith worked this way she said to the demon over and over again that you are only a little soldier Jesus is a big soldier. She told us later that the demon that was in her got angrier and angrier, but at the same time he got weaker and weaker and then eventually left. Some Christians wrongly believe that Christians cannot be possessed by demons if we are born again Christians. It is our spirit that cannot be possessed by demons, if you are a born again Christian. Our will, our emotions and our flesh can. People do not have to be a bad person to be troubled by demons. All you need to do to be possessed is to be deceived by demons. They are sneaky and clever and can easily do this if you do not know how to defend yourself in the name of Jesus. Or you live contrary to what Jesus has taught us and we all have been guilty of that. I have recently read some books on deliverance just in case something similar happens to me again.

Results of Curses

I believe a great many sickness are caused through demons, people often pray for healing and in some cases it does not happen, because you may have to have a demon removed first. I am now going through a slow process of self- deliverance now. As my faith grows stronger demons and evil spirits are leaving. Tragedies and long term grief can open you up to demons as well. So it is not necessary always our fault. There are generational curses and people are cursing you every time they think ill of you and you likewise.  When you are judging one another or even the spoken word like gossiping etc. brings evil onto them.  And remember curses that you have sent out returns to you seven times more. Jesus said ‘you will be judge as you judge others.’ Love is the only way around it. Love heals and God is a God who heals.


God is with Us Always Especially during Our Toughest Times

isI2TNE013I love reading peoples testimonies, especially how they survive their toughest times, because while we are here on this earth, we can guarantee we will have plenty of them. Where hatred is growing at an insane rate, we need survival skills in the Lord. Our life should not be the most important thing to us. Getting to heaven where our real home is, is far more exciting and something to really look forward to with so much joy. If that is not true for you, then you need to ask God urgently to make it so, especially in these days. The only real reason for living is serving and pleasing God. If God is your all in all it is because you are living in His presence. And you know you can be living in His presence and not know it! Maybe you are expecting to be in a state of continue excitement all the time. There is a time to cry and a time to laugh. Despite of what is going on around you, if you are living in His presence there is a supernatural peace that can only come from a loving and personal relationship with God. God wants everybody to have this relationship with Him.

Intimate Relationships Grow Deeper And Deeper

Intimate relationships grow over a period of time and is always becoming deeper and deeper as people work on it. Some relationships grow more intimate and trustworthy quicker than others. God gives you plenty of examples on earth for us to look around to see how relationships work. The bible of course clearly explains how we are to treat one another. So if we look close, God is saying love comes from me. If somebody loves you it is because I have given that person the Spirit of My Love, so it can manifest for you. I have never been married or had children, but I have pets and they teach me so much about God’s love for me. I have just come in from outside, praising God because of His beautiful clouds. I said to Him you’re my daddy who makes such beautiful clouds and I am more important to you and more beautiful to you, than those beautiful clouds. When you communicate to God with love it always grows and you feel closer to God, because He always responds to you by giving His joy to you. That is a way you have a loving and intimate relationship, your attention is completely on the other person with love, and the same rules apply in having a real relationship with God.

We Do not Suffer on Our Own

I got off the track but I felt it was where I was meant to go. I heard a testimony years and years ago, where a man was stabbed about seventeen times and towards the end of it he was asked if he wanted to live or die by the Holy Spirit. He had a three year old son at the time and he wanted to stay for him and look after him, so he chose to live. He said whenever he hears of a horrific murder like that he is so confident that the person is not going through it alone. Fairly recently I heard from a person who was told by Jesus that sometimes Jesus will take on the suffering on behalf of the person, because they are too weak to go through it.

Jesus is Always True to His Word

It actually brought back a memory of mine when I was converted about the power of prayer and how necessary it is to pray for the salvation of the world besides your family needs. I use to get demons attack very often to stop me from answering my calling, which I refused. This particular day this demon was punching me in my back and it of course really hurt and I for some reason sang out to Jesus in my head that would he take the punches for me. I was so surprise because in an instant Jesus did take my place. I knew the demon was punching my back, because I could feel some pressure but not pain.  I felt instantly ashamed of myself, because I then felt sorry for Jesus. Then the demon attack was over. I forgot all about it until I heard about what this women was told from Jesus about what happens to some martyrs.

I wouldn’t clap my hands and think that the majority don’t feel the pain of martyrdom, but I know if they are rely on Jesus strength and not on their own, things will work out in the end. They will have a great reward waiting for them that nobody will ever be able to take it away from them.

God is Pouring His Spirit out like Never Before.

We all need help to discern sometimes whether a vision or a visitation is from God, and if you are on your own, you can only pray about it and check it out if it agrees with the bible. My mother once complained to God that she wanted a perfect spiritual director to guide her and Jesus appeared to her and said ‘Aren’t I am enough.’ She grudgingly accepted it and then two months down the track she complained to God again and Jesus appeared a second time and said ‘you can if you want, but it is going to be useless.’ So she thought if it is going to be useless why bother. Now a great many people are going to complain for starters and say that was not from the Lord. The thing is we are all individual and God knows the best path for you and what He wants to accomplish in you.


I personally believe that in many ways my generation had to be self-taught in this area, since it wasn’t sociable acceptable amongst Christians to have supernatural gifts, especially speaking openly about it. I know there have always been people that God has used in a big way for many people to be healed, prophesy to etc. they are the lucky ones. Most of us were hushed up. What I am trying to say is what took my generation a lifetime to learn, this generation coming up will only take a very little time to learn if they are genuinely interested in walking with God, because they have a great many more teachers out there now. And also I believe the countless martyrs that have been put to death and still are being put to death for their belief in Jesus is not wasted. Because I believe God is rewarding the martyrs sacrifice in union with Jesus sacrifice on the cross, by releasing greater graces for the world to come to know Jesus and being filled with the gifts of the Holy Spirit in a most powerful way.

We are Called to be Co-Redeemers

It is a Catholic belief not shared by most Protestants. Protestants will say there is only one Redeemer and Jesus paid it all and that is that. What Catholics believe is all Christians are to follow Jesus all the way to Calvary, which means we are called to help save the world and one way to do that is to suffer as Jesus suffered. Now this is the tricky bit I find hard to explain, other people do a better job than I do but here goes. Jesus is the one only Redeemer. If Jesus didn’t pay for our sins all our efforts trying to help Jesus, save souls would be completely useless that includes evangelising. You can evangelise to someone all you like, but if you not backed up by grace you can forget it, you can’t save your own soul never alone somebody else’s.

God likes to work through His people. He doesn’t need anybody to help. It is just God’s way, He loves us to join in. It reminds me of the time when I was a small child. My mother would say ‘let’s make a cake.’ My mother did everything, got the bowl out, put all the ingredients in, stirred the cake mixture and then she would hand me over the wooden spoon, I would stirred it a couple of times and then she would put the cake mixture in the oven. Now far as I was concern I helped made the cake and my mother encourage me to think so. Our Heavenly Father is far more loving towards us than any parent on earth. He loves us to join in and do our little bit even though it is totally unnecessary.

God Rewards Christian Martyrs

Martyrs sacrifice their life for God, there is no sacrifice greater than that. So surely it stands to reason that God is going to reward them in very majestic manner. He is going to reward them more than any other person serving Him. When we pray we pray that God will spread His healing grace or saving grace on people all over the world and think nothing strange about it. What a great many people don’t seem to understand our whole life if lived for God is a prayer. God will reward you for living in union with Him. You live in union with Him when you let Jesus have His way with you.

I just believe that Christians Martyrs have made way for grace to spread throughout the whole world. I believe many conversion are taking place, because God has accepted their sacrifice so much so that He is rewarding them of souls being saved in a very powerful way. I believe when we make any kind of sacrifice and give it to God in union with Jesus suffering out of love and humility God always rewards us as if it was Jesus who made that sacrifice.