Dear God please forgive me for the hurts I have caused others, may you heal their wounds that I brought on them and bless them with eternal life. Amen.
Many people who suffer traumas, quiet often will isolate themselves, because they now have difficulty trusting another. When they isolate themselves, the thoughts of their trauma goes round and round their heads, making it difficult for them to forgive and let go of their hurt. Then they have problems to communicate love to another. They may communicate their anger, their hurt and their lack of trust. So it is like a vicious circle. They then receive more unkindness from strangers who don’t understand.
I use to say to God that I feel like a three year old who has just come back from fighting a man’s war. I remember I had a vision from God. And what He showed me was me as a three year old in soldier’s uniform that came back from fighting a man’s war. I looked into my eyes and saw great hatred and God gave me the understanding, people saw that hatred as me hating them. But the truth was my eyes were saying look at all the hatred I received. God showed me how we judge one another so wrongly. Like I said it is a vicious circle. But God can get us out of it. By believing in His love and asking Him for the ability to love and forgive others.
I understand now if the same people were enlightened by the Holy Spirit what was the real reason seeing hatred in my eyes, I would have a different response. And probably would have been healed fairly quickly. So please don’t give up, keep praying for your healing and the ability to let go of the pain you are going through. And forgive those that hurt you. Forgiving is not easy for most of us, but Jesus is our healer and we need to put our trust in Him. The more we trust Him the quicker we will see results of loving our neighbor and our healing. Look through the Bible promises and stand on scripture that strengthens you daily. And you will see results if you persevere.