Lately I have been under a major attack from demons. Fallen back to a mental illness I use to suffer with, for which a long time I was free of. I have learnt something though that the demons were using for evil, but instead God turned it around for a greater good. And now I can even thank the demons for opening my eyes to how bad I am and how much a wonderful and patient God we really serve. Who really does forgive us and wants the best for us. I often pray that the plans Satan has so carefully planned against all God’s Children will back fire onto him and that Satan will fall deeply into his own trap. That his plans, the bottom will fall out and humiliate him before all of his followers, so that they can see for themselves who they really follow. I pray that his plans will have the opposite affect of what he is planning. And what I have seen in my own struggles of late, God has done it for me. I have to keep praying this prayer not just for me, but for all of us until Jesus comes for His church, which is very soon.

The demons are attacking not only my mind, faith and confidence in God’s forgiveness, but also how many people I am leading astray through my own writings, which made me afraid of my own damnation. It is a favorite method for demons to attack people by. What the demons have done instead, after believing every lie they threw at me, I had to really look at myself and call on God with all my heart. And for Him to help me remain in faith that God still loves me and will get me through. The demons have taught me things that I wasn’t as aware of as I should have been about myself. I knew the faults existed, but not as how serious they were. Which was self righteousness, arrogance and so forth. So now I know I need to work on these things with more diligence.

I have been practising going the extra mile when I am shopping and talking to people as a friend. Much as I am able to. I am in the habit of running away from people as quickly as possible, from suffering from social phobic for nearly 40 years. I am now in the position to be more friendly. Habits are just hard to break. Those who are still suffering like that can’t, so don’t get guilty over something that is out of your range, just stretch yourself with what you can do. Healing came out of it by being more friendly. So didn’t the demons had a bad day. I am not saying the war is over, but you can learn a lot from your trials if you hang in there and hold Jesus hand and truly ask for Him to help you see how you should handle things.

We have to really believe in Jesus and remember we are all a product of how we handled our sufferings from our past. We are also being cursed everyday by people who don’t even know us. Every time you speak badly about somebody or race, religion, country, just about anything you are cursing them. And what about our family line, all the curses that have been handed down to us from generations upon generations ago. We are all still experiencing the efforts from them, because it wasn’t dwelt  with it in the past. Everybody has been cruelly treated and we have this tendency to think we are the only ones that has been hurt so unfairly.

The more unfairly you have been treated, this makes you resemble the sufferings of Christ more than others, you get a reward for that. See if you can look at it this way, you are consoling Jesus more than others, while He was carrying His cross. It should cheer you up more. The more closely you help Jesus carry His cross with love and kindness of the ones who hate you, the more Christ like you will become. That is how we resemble Him, doing things His way. Now just because I know this to be true, doesn’t mean I have done a good job at it myself, following Jesus by carrying a little load of His suffering. I am not worried about that, because I know God is not worried about it either. All He wants from me and you is making a honest effort to please Him. And the desire in wanting to be just like Jesus, because we love Him, pleases God. We can only overcome things through grace. So if we haven’t got the grace yet, it is not a problem, but not trying to overcome things is the problem.