How many times you have notice that you have to eat your own words? For example you may have judged somebody and said ‘I would never do that!’ Maybe a few years down the track and you are now in a similar situation finding out the person you judged, handle the situation better than you are now doing. God is really good at that!!!!

I have a few incredible memories given to me be by God. (Because I asked Him if I could have some babies memories and He gave about four.) This specific memory I want to share with you, I would have been about three months old I would say, but am not really sure. A long story short I was in my mother’s arms at the back of the line of all the other mothers and their babies. At the top of the line there was a very big black curtain and I noticed every time a mother carried her baby who went behind the curtain there was so an almighty scream let out by the child. I didn’t know what was going on, but we were all going to have our first injection for polio or whatever. I can remember very clearly, knowing God full well would not be happy with me, but I vowed to myself I am not going to give them the pleasure of seeing me cry. And I didn’t either. The problem that followed with that proud attitude, decades after I couldn’t cry, that much. And when I did even in the privacy of my bedroom I would be very embarrassed with myself if I did cry. How’s that for pride. I never knew what to do with people who wanted to cry on my shoulders either. Why I am bringing this up, is because God has been slowly but surely over a period of two years preparing me for the gift of tears.

Gifts Highly Valued in The Middle Ages

In the middle ages this gift was highly valued, which I will explain about it in a moment. The other gift greatly sought out blessing from God, was some saints were so privilege that Mary would appear to them and placed the baby Jesus into their arms. Not in spirit, but in the flesh. Some people might see Jesus as a toddler as well. Time means nothing to God. He can appear anyway He chooses.

Now the gift of tears comes with it healing and purification that is what I am witnessing at the moment. You will be reading something or even singing praises to God and a word may go so deep into your heart. It is much deeper than normal and in your heart love swells up so great that you cry for joy or sorrow (of what Jesus went through for you as an example). You seem to have a greater understanding of the word that has entered into your heart. It is incredibly deep and I don’t know for sure, but I believe they are tears coming from a supernatural place maybe even heaven. At one time I asked myself in my mind are these tears are my own or is it God crying through me? I still would like to know the answer to that one, because it is so deep. There is so much healing going to take place in heaven. I think maybe we have cried so much on the inside, we don’t even know how many tears are there waiting to be released. God will wipe every tear from our eyes when we get to heaven, it is a promised from God.

You see I think it is very funny that God would give me this gift, because it can happen any time or any place. I don’t mind crying alone now, but I still hate crying in public. This gift for me is so wonderful and also humiliating. I still have to die to myself in this area and many more areas also. And I know God is very busy getting His children ready for those who are willing to go all the way with Him.

Matthew 5:10-12

Blessed are those who are persecuted because of righteousness, for there is the kingdom of heaven. Blessed are you when people insult you, persecute you and falsely say all kinds of evil against you because of me. Rejoice and be glad, because great is your reward in heaven, for in the same way they persecuted the prophets who were before you.

Gifts don’t come cheap be warned. Receiving God’s love alone is worth every pain and suffering you receive, because God will always out do you in generosity. And please don’t be so quick to judge those that the media are targeting. I don’t know what is going on in your country, but in mine they seem to be looking for anything at all to bring a Christian down.