I watched a YouTube show about a man didn’t forgave his wife for about three days. And on the third day he had a car accident and died. An angel took him first to heaven to show him what it was like and then showed him hell. The angel told him, he would have gone to hell if this was his day to die. Meanwhile his wife arrange his body to be at church where many and many people prayed for him to be raised from the dead, which he did.
This story affected me very strongly. You can be doing really well, but for lack of forgiveness can go to hell. God will only forgive us if we forgive others. Since we are so wicked we can’t change ourselves, so it is so important to confess our sins to God and pray that God softens our hearts so that we can forgive all and really mean it. And do our best at forgiving.
So I wrote down a list of people from early years to now that I was having problems with forgiveness. I used the rosary beads and said the below prayer for each one that I needed to forgive.
Eternal Father I offer up the Sacred Heart of Jesus with all its love with all its suffering and with all its merits to bless …… with eternal life and bless me with a forgiving heart towards ……
While I was praying it for the first person I felt God’s Spirit in me as if He was agreeing with me and working in me. I want to be ready for the rapture or my death whichever comes first.
I beg you to write a list down also, because it does help. And write down their good points that also helps to forgive them. It helps to know just how wicked we are so we won’t be guilty of judging others too. God does answer prayers, but we have to persist in our asking and really want it. We also need to know what our real motives are. Are we serving God or doing a good deed to get praise. Self-examination is so necessary to keep us on top of things.
To cover yourself, I believe strongly to pray for the hour of your death. I have heard stories of people testimonies of seeing people in hell, who lived a good Christian life, but was tempted by the devil to stray and the devil then arranged their deaths before they had time to repent. So I strongly suggest and not put it off praying for the hour you die that you are found worthy and ready for God to take you when He does. It would be a terrible thing to go to hell and not heaven because you were trick into sinning and die a sudden death not giving you time to repent. This is where saying the Rosary really helps us.