Fast for God and You Will be Surprise of The Result

The first time I fasted more than a couple days at a time, I did it with my mother. I was in my early twenties. We decided to eat homemade bread throughout the week and eat what we liked during the weekend. We both were heavy smokers at the time and we decided to cut down half of the cigarettes intake. If you are a heavy smoker you will understand how delighted we were, when we found it an easy task. Now I realised if we were only were as keen to give up smoking all together, I believe it would have been just as easy. Because God truly blessed us for fasting the way we did. We didn’t ask God for the gift to cut down smoking. God just gave us the ability to do it. We stopped the fast after doing it for two or three weeks. Six months later it was Christmas and we decided to indulge and smoke as many cigarettes as we wanted. Once we did that we could no longer cut down our smoking.

I have fasted off and on since then, but never to the same extent as I did when I was younger. Until over a month ago. I have been on medication for a couple of decades and the side effect of those medication was extreme hunger all the time. So I always feared fasting any more than two days at a time. The thing is I have had no need for the medication for a very long time, but the hunger remain. I was reading a book about a women that Jesus was telling her that He wanted her to fast, because He wanted to give her certain graces. And it was bread and water fast. I was drawn to do it, but I was also very nervous about it.

Once again good wholesome bread during the week but I have allowed myself to have one dandelion tea and a healthy drink full of victims a day. I am on this fast for a week and weekends, I eat almost what I like. One of the miracles I am experiencing this time, once again without asking God for it, is that I am not continually hungry like I was before. And I eat only a small amount. And only one meal a day. God is full of surprises. I am offering my fast and prayers up for different things, I didn’t ask God to take away the hunger. I simply just didn’t think to do so. But what I am noticing God is giving me other favours that I haven’t been asking for either. I feel for one thing my prayers are great deal stronger. Which is something many people will tell you will happen while fasting. God does give you great rewards for fasting if it is truly done for His Sake.

Difference Between A Curse and A Calling

Romans 12:2

Do not be shaped by this world; instead be changed within by a new way of thinking. Then you will be able to decide what God wants for you; you will know what is good and pleasing to him and what is perfect.

The more you love God, the closer He will bring you to Himself and reveal His secrets. The world always confuses you when you listen to it. It preaches the very opposite of what God teachers us. When we worry about things, we don’t think clearly enough, neither can we discern God’s voice. It is so important to have quiet times with God. God is always talking to you. We have to learn how to recognise Him, so ask Him often until He is ready to show you. Plenty of times we are too busy to even try to listen to Him. Demons also talks to you all day long and for some reason we tend to listen to Satan’s voice more clearly and obey him rather than God.

A Curse Can be Disguised As A Calling

People might be saying things like ‘no way would I ever obey Satan.’ The thing is every time you give into a temptation, which is evil, you are giving into the demonic world. God never temps you to do evil. All curses; which are the result of sin, come from Satan indirectly or directly. People often blame God for all the evil in the world when they should blame people for letting Satan working in them. Satan will often use people to do his dirty work. He loves using Christians, who think they are actually doing the will of God, but are not. And they in fact do the most harm. People whether they like us or not, do expect us to behave in a Christlike fashion and when we don’t, they use it as an excuse to say Jesus is not the Son of God. And that all Christians are following a false god. That Jesus is just a man, not the Son of God at all. We all have been there, believing at some point we are doing the will of God, only to find out later that we have made a very big mistake. Doing God’s will, will always give us peace, even in the midst of a huge battle.

Ephesians 6:10-12

Be strong in the Lord and in his great power. Put on the full armour of God so that you can fight against the devil’s evil tricks. Our fight is not against people on earth but against the rulers and authorities and the powers of this world’s darkness, against the spiritual powers of evil in the heavenly world.

People don’t realise that poverty for example could be a curse. It may be the will of God that you are free of sickness, so that you can get in and do the work God is calling you to do. Sometimes it is God’s will that you seek poverty for the glory of God and sometimes God does use sickness for His glory. The trick is knowing the will of God. When it is a calling; you are just drawn to it. And you can’t always explain why. I am not particularly interested in wealth, but spiritual wealth. If I was wealthy according to the world, it would make me unhappy. I would find it a distraction from my real calling. Other people are called to be wealthy to serve God with it. And show the world that there is far more important things then fame and wealth. In their own way they will draw people to understand how good kind and loving our God is.

I was amazed to find out just how many holy saints are among the royalty. King Henry the eight destroyed a church, because it housed many Catholic saints, who  bodies were incorruptible. He was destroying the evidence, that God was pleased with all these saints. A great many of them were royalty. I always had a bad opinion of the royalty ability to stay true to God. I thought they had too many temptations to stay on the straight and narrow road that leads to eternal life. When I read that I repented.

What A Force Calling May Look Like

1 Timothy 6:6-10

Serving God does make us rich, if we are satisfied with what we have. We brought nothing into the world, so we can take nothing out. But, if we have food and clothes, we will be satisfied with that. Those who want to become rich bring temptation to themselves and are caught in a trap. They want many foolish and harmful things that ruin and destroy people. The love of money causes all kinds of evil. Some people have left the faith, because they wanted to get more money, but they have caused themselves much sorrow.

I think that really explains things well. If what you want, brings sorrow, if it keeps your mind off God, if you become obsessive about it to the point you become blind sighted, about the people you are called to love and nurture, if the door keeps closing on your face and will not open, if it becomes a god to you. If it does not produce a greater love for God you can guarantee it is not a calling from God. Even a true calling can cause sorrow, because the calling becomes more important than God. Sometimes we want to answer a calling our way and our timing. It never works out well for us and the people around us. You have to learn to let go and trust God. And genuinely seek to please God and that it is not always about ‘you.’ When we are cursed by Satan, it takes away the glow in our lives. Our minds and hearts are more on what is working against us. There is plenty of sorrow and bitterness.

A True Calling from God

When it is a calling and we doing it for the love of God. It has the effect of bring us closer to God and the people he has brought into our lives. Everything just opens up to us and made easy. It feels like it is meant to be, we feel free and completely contented with our lot in life. There is no envy of other people’s calling, because we know we are doing what God wants of us. Now after saying all that, it doesn’t mean we won’t have to suffer and share the suffering of Christ, because we will. It just that we are made for that particular cross. And God knows how to lift us up when we can’t take it anymore.

One day I was looking at a picture of the crucified Lord. And something within me felt compassion for Him, so much so I wanted to give Him something of what He gave me, back to Him. To show my appreciation of what He gave me. You get it, I was being called to give God permission to make me a martyr for Him. And He responded to it instantly, letting me know that it will happen one day, but not just yet, but He was making preparations for it. He showed me how much joy it gave Him that I offered. If your suffering, whatever it is, if it is united with Jesus’s suffering, God will then release even more grace to people who will not recognise Jesus as the true Saviour. We are all called to save souls one way or another in union with Jesus.

Delivering Yourself from Demons

Ephesians 6:16

In addition to all, taking up the shield of faith with which you will be able to extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one.

The faith he is talking about is not faith in your faith, rather faith in the love of Jesus has for you and that He has truly paid the price to free you from your sins, curses and other evil circumstance.

In this article I am using my own experience to help me explain to you how you might be able to deliver yourself from demons. They say it is best to get somebody experienced in deliverance to delivery you first and then you will be better be able to continue from there. They say that the born again Christians all have the ability to do it. If you are not born again you will need to go to an experience person who can do this. And before you can be delivered you have to repent and hand your life over to Jesus.

Demons Are Not Bigger Than God

People are often too afraid to think or talk about demons as if they are bigger than God. I had recently a wonderful experience which the Lord blessed me. I could see that we are so tiny before God. If it was us looking from His place, we would not be able to see ourselves at all! We are that tiny. And then a  thought came to me that Satan is just a speck before God. With that I felt Satan’s presence straight away and he was so angry with me, because it was a truth that he could no longer hide from me.

People are too afraid to combat demons. You might hear people say it is written in the bible, to flee from Satan. If you are going to fight the good fight how can you run from Satan. The more you are in love with God, the more Satan follows you and tries to bully you into thinking he can’t be beaten. Satan has power over you, if you are too afraid of him to fight him in Jesus’s name. There are people who are too keen to fight him and that comes out of pride. But if you are minding your own business and then he shows up, you have to take a stand. You have to believe Jesus is all for you and has the power, the means and the will to protect you.

An Angry Demon

I had an interesting experience not that long ago. I have been learning how to cast out demons in Jesus’s name for about a year now and was starting to grow more confident in that area. When just out of the blew, I looked down on my finger that I use to wear my favourite ring on. There was a huge wart appearing and I could see a demon in it and he was so angry with me. I knew he had chosen to put a wart on that finger, to get back at me for casting out some demons. I had been casting out demons like restlessness, stress things like that in Jesus’s name, but never for healing. So this was new challenge for me. I called out Jesus’s name a few times, while looking at the wart, at least two times it was invisible and then came back again. I knew God was telling me if you only believe in me,I would get rid of the whole wart in an instant. Well my faith wasn’t that strong. I called on Jesus’s name the next day over the wart and it took a little while say roughly four to six days before it went, completely away.

Casting Out Demons Is Not Always Scary

When I started to deliver myself from demons in Jesus’s name, which was about a year ago, I found it is no way frightening. I have had frightening demons attacks before many years ago, so I know they can be terrify when they wage war on you. But at that time I did not know how to bind them. I just kept praying the ‘Hail Mary’s ‘prayers and eventually God would put another prayer in my head and then I would say it and it usually got rid of the demon. I believe it was meant to be that way in those days, to expiate sin. Catholics believe sometimes God wants us to suffer with His Son so that more grace will be sent out to the world. The thing is Jesus has paid the full price of our redemption, but not everybody is willing to receive it. So God wants us to share a little of Jesus suffering, so as to give them more grace in the hope they will receive it this time. Our suffering is useless if we do not unite it with Jesus’s suffering. isW102ZQ1L

I remember for example once I was being attack and for some unknown reason I stopped praying and I could see the demon, he could not believe in his luck and straight away I felt his claws go straight in and through me. I then quickly started praying ‘The Hail Mary prayers’ again and when I finish saying my prayer the claws went straight out. Mary’s prayers are powerful, they are not to be underestimated.

I have three books in my possessions that have really helped me, understand more about self-deliverance.  The very first time I tried to deliver myself, I used a book that came with four CD’s explaining deliverance. So when the person explained it all, it was now turn to start praying for deliverance. I was not sure what was going to happen. If it would work or not, because I have tried to cast out demons before awhile back and it did not work. To my surprise after repeating what he said, demons did go. Not all the demons in me have gone, but I was amaze that any left me at all. Notice I did not have much faith. But the faith I did possess was in the love of God had for me.

There are many and many Christians, who do not believe Christians can be troubled by demons living inside them. But just think for one moment. What are demons? When a person is casting out demons they might say things like. ‘ I cast out the demon of pride or bitterness or addictions or lust or lying spirt etc.’ The list goes on and on. Now have a real good look inside of you, what demons do you have? Be honest. We all have them.

People Can Use Demons As An Excuse for Their Behavour

The church stopped preaching about demons, because people would say things like ‘it was the demon that made me do it.’ We are all called to fight the good fight, there is nobody exempt from it. If you do not fight, those demons are going to make your life very difficult to endure and might end your life prematurely.  It is not God’s will that we should be a slave to demons, we are all called to be free in Christ Jesus. In one of the books he believes delivering yourself from demons is an ongoing exercise.

I have read, demons may leave the body through coughing, yawning or crying, I think there are probably other ways too, but this is a good start. When the demons left me the first time around it was coughing. I tried it another day and I was crying and I had great difficulty repeating the words after him, because I was crying so much. In other words Jesus was casting the demons out before I could finish asking Him to do so. I now notice if you have a thought that really affects your heart in praising God, that will also releases God power to remove the demon.

I think everybody has to find their own way, but through the help of these three books I found a way that has worked for me. My biggest problem at first was hearing everybody saying, you have to have faith, before any miracles can happen. My question was always how do you get this faith?  I found praising God and letting yourself go and be a child again is the best way to grow in faith. Because more times than not God will respond to you in a supernatural way, to reveal something to you. When you praise Him, just because you love Him, not because you want to get something from Him. Really has a strong affect on God. Just put ourselves in His place, we hate being used, so does God.

An Important Trick

I find when after you just cast out the demons in the name of Jesus. You exhale and it then starts the ball rolling for some reason. You find you may cough, cry or yawn is a good sign they have left. Demon are like gangs.  More likely than not you will have to cast out many demons. It is hard work and some people’s faith is stronger than others. Some people call out the chief demon, (the top dog). If you can do that all the demons under him will leave instantly, after their leader.

The next step is to keep them out. With me they try to bring doubt into me that they have indeed left or that it is easy for them to come back in again.  I believe everybody will have their own method in keeping them out, but keeping your eyes on the glory of God and His power and love for you is important. After a few months of this, one day it just dawn on me, the demons can’t get in without my say so. They can bully or they like but they simply can’t get in without my permission, I was looking at my favourite picture of Jesus at the time, and Jesus materialised in the Spirit and told me it was correct, they can’t get in unless I let them. I found you can also just rebuke them in Jesus name and they go.

Seeing God Through A Child’s Eyes


Jesus has told us to come to Him as a child and we are also told that we cannot go to heaven without being like a child. We all can have this problem, we read the bible passages and not really take in what Jesus has actually said. So we don’t really practise what He is telling us to do. What Jesus is telling us is real important information on how to get to heaven. We don’t always really listen carefully enough, especially when it is simple. I think because we are so devious in nature we think everything has to be hard. Being a child is the most simple and joyful way of serving God. It gives you the ultimate security in God, because a child really believes and trust their parents. They see things so simply and they are very imaginative, so as to see a bigger God than adults do and they really believe He can do all things.

An Innocent Child

The problem now days, very few children come from secure families and therefore they do not see things in a way that a child ought. So it is hard to explain to people whose childhood has not been secure, but instead felt being betrayed and that they can’t trust anybody. I know if you want to go to heaven you have to see God through the eyes of an innocent child. An innocent child has not been exposed to harmful circumstances that have taken away their innocence’s. A child of God knows and is confident that he is loved so therefore feels totally free to express his own love to His Creator in his own unique way. The only thing I can suggest for people who do not know what it is to be like a small child who feels safe in his father’s arms, is to pray to God for guidance on how God wants to heal you and free you of fear and also the feeling that you are the problem.

We Need To Forgive

Forgiving seems a major sin in all of us. Another thing about small children they soon forget a wrong that has been done to them. The moment they receive love they love back. They don’t hold back, they give their all. I have had a problem with forgiving people, all through my adult life. I came from a very loving family, but it was always outside that the wolves were roaming freely to savage me. I have had breakdowns on top of breakdowns and so on, mostly because of people judging me continuously. Judging is so cruel and can cause real lasting harm to people. And very rarely people get it right anyway.

Don’t Gossip

The messages I am hearing from God’s visionaries, is if we refuse not to gossip and slander people we will not be ready when the rapture comes. We will be the ones staying behind. So it is very, very important to ask God to help you not to let Satan tempt you in talking about another person in a harmful way. It is so important, because they are saying He is coming very soon. When people give you dates, ignore them because Jesus said only the Father in heaven knows. One person who Jesus speaks to says it won’t be years that He is coming it will be months, so don’t dawdle.

We Are Fighting Demons Not the Flesh

After all those years I am finally learning the key, how to forgive people who deeply hurt me. And it something that is in the bible. St. Paul tells you that you are not fighting flesh you are fighting demons. Of course he doesn’t say it quiet that way, but I have abbreviate it. I have learnt over the years, simple techniques to overcome what I have always found impossible to deal within myself. I eventually found it is not so much them that is causing the problem, but demons living in them. We all have demons living in us, because we all have sinned against God. Every time we sin we let a demon in and it strengthens that demons power of influence over us. So now I am learning that it is all right to hate the demon in the person, but do not hate the person, who has allowed himself to be deceived. Something we all guilty of and when we sin in a particular area long enough we become blind to how seriously we offend God.

Ways to Learn How To Forgive

I have also found when you stop criticising the person and instead pray for the person’s salvation, your mind is then distracted from thinking about them in a negative way. Doing that over a period of time you realise how much God suffered for that person, so that person could be saved. So then you start thinking about God’s yearning for that soul and His great love and now you wish to bring that soul to God more than ever. You now don’t want His Son die in vain for them. Another thing I am learning and it is just as equally hard for me and that is don’t complain to others about the wrongs people do to you. You are spreading a curse on that person and by doing that you are cursing yourself in the long run. Go to God and tell Him of all your pain and anguish. I find if I am terrible hurt I have to write it down. Writing a letter to God explaining how I feel about everything, really helps me very much. So I am not spreading hate around. I am getting it off my chest in the way that helps me and not hurting others in the process. Also reminding myself of all the times I let God down, puts a stop in me to judge another person in a negative way. Call on God to heal you.

How To Become An Innocent Child Again

So how does a child see God again? They see Him in all simplicity. They don’t complicate anything. They are themselves before God and they don’t doubt God. They know He really and truly loves them for who they are. They ask for miracles all the time, because it is natural for them to do so. They don’t try to work out how God is going to do it, they just know He loves them so much He is going to do it. They throw themselves at God, they literally leap into His arms. They don’t hide their love for Him, they show it with so much enthusiasms and with complete joy and confidence. They melt God’s Heart. God can’t resist them. To be a child of God is to be pure and free. No hang ups. Life is one joyful adventure after another. Always exploring the wonders of God with so much delight and awe. And it goes on and on. When we are child like it is not about worldly riches, it is all about being loved and loving the one they trust completely, their Heavenly Father.

The War Is Not Over! For Women

Many women think the war is over regarding the threat of women being dominated by men. Think again. Satan is always on the lookout to destroy, steal and kill. And he loves seeing people being dominated. Taking their free will away and creating hate. He is always finding new ways to turn people against one another. You can’t listen to the voice of Jesus if you refuse to slow down and spend time in worship with Him. I mean true worship, not lip service. When you listen to Jesus, you will soon learn He is a lover not a controller of men and women. Satan works though human weaknesses. And we have plenty for him to choose from. If you are true follower of Jesus you will be instinctively drawn to His Spirit, which is always very loving. Even when He has to correct you firmly and sometimes He has too, but it is always out of Love and you can always recognise it.

The Bible Has Always Been Used to Control, by the Wrong People

People all through history have used the bible wrongly and they are still doing it. For example for centuries they used the bible to excuse the right to have slaves. And they are still using the bible to exploit women. The wrong use of the word ‘head’ is used to control women to keep them down. And most men love that. In the bible it says in Genesis, Chapter 3:16. Because of sin, women will yearn for their husbands, only to be lorded over by them. God couldn’t speak plainer than that. It is not God’s will, it is the will of man, because of sin. Bible scholars recognise different parts of the bible has been translated wrongly, especially regarding to women. There are many men in the church ignore it deliberately, because they don’t want to lose their power over women.

God has spoken through respected prophets of our time, reassuring women that we will come out of our caves and do great things for God. And everybody is going to know it is God’s doing. For those who are interested in seeing what our prophets are saying there is a link Elijah List.

Human Nature is Weak

People who refuse to believe it, are mostly men who want to believe they are superior to women and have a right to control women as they please. The argument about good men would naturally love their wives like Christ loves He church are few and far between. Many men in the church insistently preach at the pulpit women have to submit to men. They extremely and rarely bring to the attention to men that they have to love their wives as Christ loves His Church. And when on rare occasions they do, they do not do it with the same enthusiasm and domineering tone as they do, when addressing women to submit to their husbands. The information on how the bible is not always translated correctly, is not hard to find. So there is very little excuse for ignorance. You are either for God or against Him. And let’s face it most Christians are not going to meet Jesus in the air when he comes for us, as many visionaries are warning. When God’s word is preach in all honesty it is very rarely accepted, because men and women love their flesh too much and will not deny themselves for the love of God. God is all about love not domination over others, it is always that simple.

Why Catholics are Taught to Bless Mary

isVJF7ODZBI know a great many Protestants insist that all Catholics worship Mary. Unfortunately some do, but that is not part of the Catholic teaching. You are going astray if you worship Mary. Devout Catholics have a very intimate relationship with Mary. And that can be mistaken as worship. Why does Mary more likely appear to a Catholic than a Protestant. To be truthful Protestant are very nervous of having a relationship with Mary. They are basically been taught that is worship. And that is like a closed door, they will not let Mary enter in their lives. Some may be attracted to her from afar, but they won’t get close to her and so miss out on all that she has as the Mother of Our Lord has to offer them.

Why Ask Mary to Pray on Your Behalf

You might ask what Mary has got to offer you. You will be surprised, the more you honour her the closer she brings you to her Son. Some prayers believe it or not won’t get answered without Mary’s help. She speeds the answer to your prayers quicker than you can realise. Not only is she the Mother of Jesus Christ, she was the greatest Martyr other than Jesus Himself, who is our Saviour. The thing is we are called to be semi-saviours. Jesus has paid the whole price of our redemption, but not everybody has accepted it. So God calls us all to make sacrifices for souls who are lost to Him. This happens only if we unite our suffering with Jesus. It stands to reason we can suffer all we like and not be able to save ourselves never alone somebody else. If you offer yourself up as a victim for God, God quickly accepts it, I know because I did a couple of times and He never says no to that one. Because He is starving for His lost children. He wants them so badly. To help out is costly, but that too brings you much closer to Our Saviour. The more we help out, the greater our faith and love grows for God. So what I am saying, nobody is Marys equal; she has suffered more; love more and has the strongest faith in Jesus than anybody else.

We Call Mary Our Mother

Jesus has given her to us so that we can call her our Mother. It is His gift to us. She is more your mother than your earthly mother. Like Jesus would tell you she suffered more, to give birth to you than your earthly mother did. She has paid a higher price over you. And she loves you far more than your earthly mother does. Mary’s power to help, is God given. She has no power of her own, but because she was faithful in life she now rules in heaven as the Queen of Heaven and Earth. There is a lot of arguments about that. While people argue; Catholics are receiving visions of Mary as Mother and as the Queen of Heaven and Earth, all throughout Christian History. Miracles are happening by turning to her in prayer asking her to intercede on our behalf.

I Was Slow to Accept Mary as Mother

I had a problem accepting Mary as my mother well after becoming a Catholic. I have a favourite book called ‘He and i’ and every time I turn to that book to read, it keep falling on pages that Jesus would say repeatedly ask My Mother. Over and over again, until I got fed up and so I said “All right!” I have been praying this certain prayer for years and years when I asked Mary  I got a ‘yes’ straight away. She spoke to me and she was closer to me than I was to myself. So close that it scared me and she spoke so loudly and her voice was crystal clear and very beautiful. Many and many people will give testimony to Mary’s response to prayer.

Luke 1:48. For he has been mindful of the humble state of his servant, from now on all generations will call me blessed.

is2C12MD3ZAll the old churches that claim to be started by a disciple do bless Mary and honour her, it is just the Protestant that think it is a form of worship.

Consecration to Jesus and Mary

My favourite prayer book has a prayer that I am just started saying. It is a prayer of consecration to Jesus Christ, The incarnate wisdom, through the Blessed Virgin Mary. I have had this book for about forty years. I kept away from this prayer, because you are offering yourself to Jesus and Mary as their slave. I didn’t have any problems calling myself a servant but I had great problems humbling myself an acknowledging that I am a slave first. God raises the humble. If you want to be great in Heaven than you have to consider yourself the least. So I am just starting to be comfortable with the word slave. Since I have been saying it I am getting even closer to Mary. I feel she is helping me even more.

One paragraph I really like goes like this; O admirable Mother, present me to thy dear Son as His eternal slave, so that as He has redeemed me by thee, by thee He may receive me! O Mother of mercy, grant me the grace to obtain the true Wisdom of God; and for that end receive among those whom thou lovest and teachest, or whom thou leadest, nourishes and protectest as thy children and thy slaves.

When we say things like grant us grace or wisdom or whatever we are saying pray for us so that we may receive these things. We are not saying she has the ability by herself to provide for us. We believe she has great influence on her Son. Jesus finds her irresistible, He can’t resist her request. Jesus has said this to many visionaries.

A Intercessory Prayer of the Sacred Heart

I have a prayer book that I really value. I have bought the book time and time again, because they keep wearing out, I love using them that much. It is full of prayers that mostly Jesus has given to different saints over the time. The book is called ‘The Pieta Prayer Book.’ You can buy it over the internet and the book doesn’t cost that much. One prayer I readapt to suit my own needs and I was shown God was so pleased with it. He showed me a vision that if you offer up the Sacred Heart up for anything at all, He will always accept it. He showed me God the Father was so happy to receive the Sacred Heart that He said yes even without looking at the prayer that  Jesus was offering through His Sacred Heart on our behalf.  Naturally Jesus knows the prayers God the Father will accept. He will never offer His own Heart to something that is not pleasing to God the Father. God loves to give His children their hearts desire providing it is not harmful to them. God knows when it is the right time to give it to you too.

The prayer starts with

Eternal Father, I offer Thee the Sacred Heart of Jesus, with all its love, all its sufferings and all its merits……. make your request.

I say this prayer over and over again using the rosary beads. Years later I changed it by saying it this way.

Eternal Daddy, I love you, I offer up the Sacred Heart of Y’shua, with all its love, all its sufferings and all its merits…….

I have found Jesus’s real name in Hebrew is Y’shua, so I like to use it as often now as I can.

Another Time I Was Praying

God put it to me one day while I was praying that when you are asking for a favour from Him, saying these words first before your request adds strength to the prayer and that is.

‘May we be made worthy of ….

So Here is an Example of a Prayer You May Wish to Say

Eternal Daddy, I love you, I offer up the Sacred Heart of Y’shua with all its love, all its sufferings and all its merits that we may be made worthy of being found ready when you come for us. Amen

Growing in Wisdom

Proverbs 8:11. For wisdom is more precious than rubies, and nothing you desire can compare with her.isO5HO9OA7

Sometimes the filing system in my concordance of my bible, is so different from how I think. I find bible verses that I am looking for most of the time in it. On the other hand there are times, it doesn’t matter how hard I try, and I just can’t find the verse I am looking for. The above verse does make the point clear that we should seek wisdom, because it is truly priceless. The verse I was looking for was the one that says ‘wisdom is more precious than gold and silver.’ Why was it so important for me to find that verse? I want to go back to a time when I was about twelve years old. I opened up my bible to the verse that said ‘wisdom is more precious than gold and silver.’ Because I feared God I agreed to it, but deep in my heart I preferred the gold and silver. I was young so I had very little knowledge that God saw what was in my heart. You can’t fool God. Now not long after that God had to teach me how important wisdom was, by not giving it to me when I was so desperately in need of it. There is a saying ‘sometimes you have to be cruel to be kind.’ It is a very unpopular saying but totally truthful. It is only because we are so stubborn and refuse to learn what is good for us. We refuse to obey; can’t get any plainer than that.

Uncontrollable Thoughts

The trial I was experiencing, felt like a hell on earth and it lasted about seven years. So I missed out all the good times when I was young. I believed every day I was going to go to hell. I was busy trying to save myself. I was suffering with uncontrollable thoughts that was extremely upsetting. The thoughts forced their way into my mind. The more panic I got over them, the stronger the thoughts became. So it was complete torture. I didn’t tell anybody about them, because I thought nobody would love me anymore. Now that I am adult in my senior’s years, I see so many people tortured with the same trial. Everybody thinks they are the only ones, but far from it. Saint John of the Cross says it happens to people who God is preparing them to have a deeper union with Him. And he continues and says for the sensitive souls, find it extremely hard, meaning they think it is them. Now I have read it decades ago so the wording is all wrong but the meaning is the same. These thoughts come from demons, not the person.

God Does Have Some Wonderful Plans For Us

Satan knows some of the plans God has for you. And they are great plans if you take God up on it. And of course Satan is going to do everything possible to stop it from ever happening. Unfortunately many people are so fearful of the trial that Satan gives them, they don’t trust God. So they give in and back away from the plan God is preparing for them. If you keep up the fight and trust God you always will come up on top and win a great victory for yourself and for the kingdom of God. God is always with you, but if you don’t trust Him, you will get weaker and then you start turning to the world for consolations and it never satisfies you for very long. If you had persevered to the end, what would have happened, you would have learned so much about the enemy’s tactics? And would of grown both wiser and stronger as a Christian and be able to help others who are going through what you just have been through. And the reward on earth and in heaven is so great, that it is worth every bit of trouble you go through.

My lack of wisdom tortured me, for one thing I learnt you don’t isolate yourself when you suffer, you have to talk about it to a wise person that you can trust. The second thing I learnt you have to trust in God’s mercy, and you really have to believe in His infinite love and greatest desire to forgive you of all your sins whatever they are, whether they are imaginary or real. The third thing I learnt you can’t save yourself. The fourth thing you have to pray for your survival sometimes without ceasing and fourthly don’t give up.

Released From My TormentsisWNUVGOVL

I suffered this torment for approximately seven years and I remember I said one day ‘I am going to believe in God’s mercy even if I don’t believe I am going to believe.’ I meant it with all my being and I do think that is what God was waiting for. One thing I was humbled to the ground and secondly I knew only God could help me and thirdly I was going to believe even if it looked like God was against me. What instantly followed was I felt all this weight leaving my body from my head upwards. I didn’t know it at the time, that weight were demons that were tormenting leaving me. And I was rejoicing and praising God with all my heart over the freedom that I was then experiencing. Then the memory came to me, which I now know was the Holy Spirit, reminding me of the time I was preferring gold and silver instead of wisdom. And I can remember the question that was presented to me, ‘if somebody ask you to exchange wisdom for silver or gold would you?’ I remember so clearly saying that ‘I would laugh at their faces, no way would I prefer gold and silver in exchange for wisdom.’ What a lesson! It took years of being humbled to get to that stage. Now don’t fear, it doesn’t have to be that way. The quicker we learn to do things God’s way the quicker we arrive at His truths. In other words, obey Him and we will be alright. If we are prepared to deny ourselves and pick up our cross and follow Jesus it is so much easier than fighting God. It is like gardening, fighting nature instead of going with it, makes everything so difficult.

Working In God’s Vineyard

I was thinking a couple of days ago about Jesus speaking about a parable. Some people were employed to work in the vineyard from the very beginning of the day and others set to work much later and the last lot of people who arrived working in the vineyard, started an hour before knock off time. When it was time for everybody to get paid, the people who worked in the last hour got the same pay as the ones who started working in the man’s vineyard from the very beginning of the day. I have to admit I have been very jealous of those who started late. One day I was thinking about it and I thought I am glad I started at the beginning, because I am working for such a lovely Master. Straight away Jesus showed me how much my thoughts pleased Him. And it is true, despite of all the hardships you go through and there is so many, especially if you really commit yourself to God. The reason being, Satan for starters is going to do everything in his power to stop you. God always gives you the feeling of well done. Even that feeling alone is wonderful and worthwhile.

Another thing I just want to mention. I have been meditating a lot on how big God is lately and it has been some journey. It has brought me so much closer to God. All my life I am getting closer to God, the journey doesn’t ever stop. If we love God we are always wanting to get closer and closer to Him. My thoughts were not only on how big God is but also reflecting, His love, mercy, strength, Glory everything is as big as He is. I was considering our small Satan really is in comparison to how big God is and I said ‘Satan is only a speck.’ I felt Satan presence and he was so angry. So all he did was confirmed it was true. If it wasn’t true he would of, laughed at me.

Confession is Now Called Reconcilliation

I prefer to use the word confession for some reason, so I will use that word rather than what most people are using which is reconciliation. I am very out of date with these kinds of things. I want to draw your attention to it and why Catholic practise it. Many Protestant disagree with it. And I did too when I was a Protestant. The thing is God was very gracious to me, because He granted me a grace to show me God is truly present in the priest during confession. When the priest absolves your sins, he is doing it through the grace God has given to all His priest. It is not the priest that absolves you from your sins, it is Jesus that is working in him, and through him.

Before I could join the Catholic Church there was no way around it, I had to say my confession before I was allowed to be confirmed into the Catholic Church. When I finished my confession, the priest then spoke the words of absolution. I felt and saw the grace called sanctification and it was so strong! Pouring out of the priest mouth and onto me. There was no way I could deny it.

is(10)Another thing that really impressed me was, the particular church I use to go to; the one that I grew up in; I never heard the word sanctification before, it was a new word for me. Yet while the priest spoke, the exact word came to me and I knew what it meant. The priest didn’t say the word, it was the Holy Spirit that said it. I have had other experiences from God teaching me that He is truly present in a priest while he is listening to our confessions. I don’t understand why Protestants find it so difficult to believe?  They know that Jesus lives in all born again Christians. why wouldn’t He live in a priest especially while the priest is conducting a service on God’s behalf? It is not the priest ability to free us from our sins, it is a grace that God has given to them for our benefit. It is very similar to the belief that Jesus has given us His authority to heal the sick, cast out devils and so on in His name.

I really wish Protestants would read of the countless testimonies that Catholics have reported over the centuries. I believe most Protestant would see Catholics beliefs with new eyes. There are always sceptics that can’t believe in anything, but if you are one with God you do sense His Spirit present when people of God are giving their testimonies of their experiences of Him. Because the Spirit of Truth comes from God and can be sensed by people who can discern Him.

Ask God When You Are in Doubt

I firmly believe what God says to a Protestants and Catholics are sometimes different things, because God knows what you are open too and can handle. And He does not force new teachings on you if you are not willing to learn from Him. You can always ask God to open your eyes so that you can understand truths that you don’t understand or have not yet been introduced to. You can guarantee, like all of us, we don’t know as much as we think we do. We in fact know so little about God and His ways. We are always learning new secrets about God.

I believe without a doubt in heaven we will keep learning for the whole of eternity, and it would be such a joy to learn about how wonderful God is. Jesus said ‘seek and you shall find.’ I don’t think many Christians really seek out the truth in real earnest that much, we are so sure we know it all. We are all too proud to listen to what God is saying through people that we consider ourselves superior too. God shares His secrets to the humble. He raises the lowly and humbles the proud. We must pray for humility all the time, if we want to recognise what God is saying in people. Some of us are blocking God’s will for ever happening, because we are so sure we are right and everybody else is wrong. I believe Protestants and Catholic both have something to give one another, because God does talk to both of us. Always has.

Reasons for Going to Confession

James 1:5. If you need wisdom ask our generous God, and He will give it to you. He will not rebuke you for asking.

My mother had a vision once. She was a Catholic from birth, but she didn’t understand the reason why Catholics had to go to confession. Her argument was if we repent of our sins and believe that Jesus has paid the price for our sins on the cross, why should we have to go to confession? It is basically what Protestants believe. She asked God and Jesus appeared to her and He was not angry with her for asking Him, nor was He upset of her ignorance. He was smiling at her and said ‘it is because you don’t believe, that you need to go to confession.’

isW102ZQ1LLet’s be honest how many Christians can honestly say they believe with all their hearts God forgives all their sins. Despite the fact we believe Jesus died for us, our faith levels are not always perfect. We have to deal with Satan for one thing, trying to convince us constantly that God doesn’t love us and He will not forgive that sin. The one that we worry about the most, the one that keeps coming back and haunting us. That is why Jesus said to my mother you need to go to confession, because you don’t believe I love you enough to forgive you.

After you go to confession you do feel like a load has been lifted off your shoulders and sometimes you experiences a miracle for going, because God is so please that you have confess a sin that was particularly hard for you. God does bless us when we go to confession. It is also very humbling to tell a priest about your sins. There are sins you don’t want to tell anybody especially to a priest. I know one priest complain to me, about priest having to go to confession because they have to go to one another to confess their sins. In other words he was saying it is much harder for them, because they know one another and have to work with one another.

God is Always for us if we are For Him

Isaiah 43:2-3

“When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and when you pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over you. When you walk through the fire, you will not be burned; the flames will not set you ablaze. For I am the Lord, your God, the Holy One of Israel, your Saviour.”

It is one of my favourite verses in the Bible, depending on my mood. God is talking to a person who is living a life of holiness. Often God will make promises, but before you see the fruit of those promises you have to be dedicated to Him. You have to serve God and no other. God is talking to His own. People who truly trust Him and obey Him. Many people don’t see that. They want their cake and eat it. They can’t have it both ways and get away with it. They can’t expect the promises of God to be fulfilled, in their lives if they serve strange gods and not repent. You will be surprise the gods we serve. You think they are harmless distractions, but they are keeping us are away from God’s promises. We are often guilty of wanting one foot in the world and the other serving God. There is so many gods we serve. Knowledge is one that you might not expect. If you use knowledge in a way that glorifies God then it has served its purpose. If you want knowledge for power over others for example than it is not working for God’s glory. Another god that I have just woken up to in me is called ‘comfort.’ Many things don’t get done for God, because we love our comfort far too much. God’s gifts are beautiful, but we must make sure God is loved by us far more than His gifts.

We Need to Repent Every Day

Now what I have just said is very depressing, because we are all guilty of serving strange gods in one way or another. The thing is God is patient to a soul who examines his conscious daily and then genuinely repents from all things that he has committed against God. We won’t know all our sins, because of our spiritual blindness. I always ask God to forgive all my sins, the ones that I know about and the ones that I don’t know about. The way I see it, it is like having a daily bath. Repenting of our sins, is something we have to do every time we see that we are displeasing God in our actions or words. God does not have an ego problem as we do. God rejoices every time you turn to Him in repentance. Because every time you do, you are showing God it is Him that your heart truly wants to serve. We are very weak and God is not at all surprise about that. He knew you were weak before you were even born. I meditate a great deal on Jesus in Gethsemane. Jesus saw beforehand what He had to endure on the following day while He was praying in the garden. It was so horrific for Him, He sweated blood out of fear of what He needed to do to save us. Jesus explained to Gabrielle Bossis that He was like a frighten child. Despite of that He said yes to God the Father to go through the whole passion for us. Jesus didn’t die as a God. If He had done that His death would not have meant anything to The Father. He had to die as a man with all our sins upon Him. We just have to remember to be grateful to Him. What God hates the most is indifference. Unfortunately we all have been guilty of that too. Repent! Repent! It is so important. It should be done daily without fail.